APATHIST - Apathy Lyrics

Staring at my screen again
Struggling to find the words
It's going to be just like last time
Why must I be such a failure
Sitting in the dark for hours
Does anyone even care
Am I really making a difference?
Or is my life f*cking worthless?

Apathy has got it's hold on me
Wonder if I'll ever be free
I can't find the strength within, so
Help me out, pick me up, before I'm going under
Apathy has got it's hold on me
Wonder if I'll ever be free
Oh God, just let me breathe, so
Help me out, pick me up, before I'm going under

They say that motivation is fleeting
I can never see anything through
Feels like I'm bound to nothing
Why can't I just take control?
Under weight of my ambition
Tenacity takes its toll
No gold by the end of the rainbow
Everything is in vain

So many unkind words I recall
Maybe they were all just as true as the pain
Still I keep holding on - still holding on
This moment happened once before
Wonder if I'll ever feel anything at all
Evanescence and emptiness
I somehow keep holding on - hoping someday you will
Help me out, pick me up

Apathy has got it's hold on me
Wonder if I'll ever be free
I can't find the strength within, so
Help me out, pick me up, before I'm going under
Apathy has got it's hold on me
I wonder if I'll ever be free
Oh God, just let me breathe, so
Help me out, pick me up, before I'm going

Under
Doesn't matter what I do
I'll never change the world
Under
No end in sight for misery
No fixing this futility
Under
I know there is a way
Know this is not the end
Under
Need to know it's not too late
Need to know i'm not in vain

Apathy has got it's hold on me
Wonder if I'll ever be free
I can't find the strength within, so
Help me out, pick me up, before I'm going under
Apathy has got it's hold on me
Wonder if I'll ever be free
Oh God, just let me breathe, so
Help me out, pick me up, before I'm going under
Apathy has got it's hold on me
Wonder if I'll ever be free
So please, just hear my voice, and
Help me out, pick me up, before I'm going under