ApLo - Remembrance Lyrics

I remember the days of when i been through the struggle
I didnt have have much i was abandoned by mother
She left fir another man of which i didn not understand
To this day i still wonder what the hell was the plan?
She claimed that she made the wrong choice and she took it all in
But she still with the same dude back when we kept callin and fallin
It doesnt make sense then, It doesnt make sense now
But when i think of all you did i just lean back and i say "wow"
And now you acting so tough and you acting so proud
I remember nights id lay down and cry on the couch
Or go in the back and id cry with my gal
And smoke all my pain away cause thats all i know how, yeah
All i wanna know is what i did so bad mama
That youd choose nother man over your daughter?
Over your son? over your grandson like are we a bother?
Im sorry we never found peace but now its drowning in water
Like how could you choose another man over your blood?
Like that leaves me more f*cked up than it normally would
But i think its about time that I put it in the past
That means its time for healing time to break off the cast
Time to reevaluate and make my life better
Time to change the tone just liuke a change in the weather
Mama i wish you well in all your future endevors
But the next time thatI see you I hope that its never