Grief Video (MV)

When I was young, I had night terrors
Awake in cold sweats, just sit there
Hours passed, felt out of body
Sun would show, but night had robbed me
Of all my focus, teachers noticed
Got into mischief, get sent home
Still I'd sit there, all alone
Began to crave that, mind would roam
Now I'm older, worlds colder
Heart grew wiser; disillusioned
I'll die a martyr, but I can't prove that
God they made me feel so useless
Sometimes pain don't leave bruises
Sometimes you just can't prove it
Went through hell, lost ten pounds
Then I found it, on my shoulders
Sometimes pain don't leave bruises
Time moves on but grief keeps looming
Things I wish I knew much sooner
No, you can't save us now
We're falling too far
So please save yourself
This pain won't last long
Oh, you can't save me now
Go or watch me drown
I'll leave one last song
Before I move on
In my society
Things are still blinding me
Realize it, that's stone cold irony
Nature walks to gather thoughts on my own
Not Introverted, that's independence
Cut all my ties, you will regret this
Haven't seen my heart since that November
Absolved my feelings, learned peace from temper
Drowning in the depth; life long adventure
Family in town I won't even visit
People I love but Love from a distance
Demons they talk these days, I don't listen
Scared I think no one would miss me
Loss is trauma, I get that now
I see that now, I feel that now
Empathy's a sick form of revenge
So I swear I've settled all my vendettas
Sometimes pain don't leave bruises
Time moves on but grief keeps looming
Things I wish I knew much sooner
No, you can't save us now
We're falling too far
So please save yourself
This pain won't last long
Now I'm always hiding
So much anxiety
Everyone just lies to me
Says it will all be fine
And I lost my heart
And I'll never find it
And my friends are scarce
Turn a blind eye to me