Apollo Clone - This Winter Will Kill Us All Lyrics

I was outside late one night, it snowed
I walked home barefoot just to feel
I saw you wearing summertime clothes in the cold
With that painted on smile only I know
You were at a bar laughing out loud, it seemed
From afar you're happier without me
Guess I get it; I'd be happier without me
Outgrew all my tears and apologies
I seek constant validation
And all these mental problems overlap my creative
I'm always lost in the past or a dark place
They took away my family, the scars make my heart race
Now I don't really ever get to watch the Sun go down
Because I'm afraid to see another day pass me by
I won't leave my room because there ain't nothing else outside
No one even to come check on me if I died
I feel nauseous, I let myself down
Hate consequences, I beat myself up
My head don't feel right, there's nobody real left
You knew where my heart was when you heard my first song
Move along, move along
My exes friends says that I only ever did her wrong
Why you can't ever tell 'em that we did each other wrong?
And we picked eachother up, every couple ups and downs
I'm drowning, every pleasant thought I had these days now I'm doubting
I need affirmation, heavy doses or I'm not well
Remember holding roses, how the thorns made my heart feel