Aq Xico - Regicide Lyrics

You're addicted to my suffering
You wouldn't know who to be if it wasn't for the troubling things you've seen
And heard
Your identity is your misery
Crying out for peace, but deep down, you don't want it
You see that gun?
It's looking at you, calling you, get on it
You supposed to be my friend or my opponent?
I think you know
I was born within you from the voices that got in you
I am everything you fear and I'm tied to you like sinew
The self doubt that pulls you back to Earth, as it were
To keep you safe from harm and remind you of your worth
Who'd you think you were?
A rap artist? A star?
You're gonna look back and laugh at all this
So far you've accomplished literally nothing in your life
You even lost your kids and your motherf*cking wife
Nobody likes you or wants to see you, am I right?
You're right, so what's the point in fighting?
I am my only rival
I question my own survival
I'm feeling suicidal
But my story is regicide
I hold no lands and titles
Alone in my exile
There's nothing in my life
This is my regicide
I'm descended from Sheeba and the Himyarite kings
So why am I having so much trouble with the right things
So I write things, verbalize my complicated feelings
Nothing in my life feels right or appealing
You're terrible at everything you've ever tried to do
You pushed away everyone that ever liked you
If I go, you go
Why you doing me like this?
You can't be like everybody else
I'm a prince!
A prince doesn't let the crown slip
But I'm Princip and Ferdinand
Listened to the word of man
Man is a wolf
I'm worth more than a body in a hearst
Living halfway, or not living, which is worse?
I am my only rival
I question my own survival
I'm feeling suicidal
But my story is regicide
I hold no lands and titles
Alone in my exile
There's nothing in my life
This is my regicide
'Cause soon you'll stop talking about me
Then you'll stop remembering
Then you'll forget all the time that you used to spend with me
Give it about a decade and you'll forget my face
And the way I used to make you feel
Things I used to say
Eventually, I'll just stop crossing your mind
I'm not a flash in the pan to get forgotten in time, no
I'll be right there enjoying my life
Laughing at the hard times and how we survived
You're that enemy from inside
The other side of the mirror
I know she wouldn't want me to do it, I can hear her
If I do it, it's a much worser crime than suicide
Prince, right? That makes it regicide. Regicide
I am my only rival
I question my own survival
I'm feeling suicidal
But my story is regicide
I hold no lands and titles
Alone in my exile
There's nothing in my life
This is my regicide