Why nobody talks about how boring love
I love him and he loves me we must be perfect
Almost never fight and if we fight it's always me
Crying in his arms the whole time
I can't fight... Him or me?
He never screams he never shouts
I hardly open my mouth
Yet still He is so still
Waiting till I spill what's the deal
Am I a joker? A card with no sense
A cloud of something that turns into nothing
Am I okay or am I joking?
Am I a joke and if I am
What is my life?
And if I'm not am I a chaser?
Not after him but my own self-respect
I'm so dumb I am so confused
Is he hurting me or is it myself?
Be my peace and my anger
My mind and my temper
Be both and be none or else
I'll be hurt and relieved
Disappointed believing
In you and your absence please
You are a hug in the winter
A house in the rainstorm
And I'm so not used to it
But if you love me adore me
Be careful and worry
Of nothing but us my dear
Why nobody told me that the peace in real love
Gets you confused I conclude
It's a petty lil outcome
Almost learn the lesson but my temper kicks the chest and
All you hear are words now are a weapon
I can see him rising upwards
I defend habitually awkward
But expected curse turns out to be
A big warm hug
And he tries to understand me
But honestly he just can't stand it
It turns out to be a step in the blind
Yeah I am happy
That we never really fight
That makes me lonely every time
I'm lonely in my feelings
It is nothing well it's really
I am scared to be apart from this
Offensive defensive
Preventive attentive
Aggressive alleged shit
Can't stand it or help it
Ignore it adore it
React or be in tact with it
I'm not used to don't choose to
Be as harsh or lose to
The kind smile you give when I'm pissed
If you love me adore me
Be careful and worry
Of nothing but us my dear
Anything I tell you I would love to be true
(I'm not yours I am not mine)
It wakes me up in the middle of night but
I have us in the heart or mind)
Anything you tell me I would love to believe
(I cannot tell what's happening)
But it gets stuck in my scars
(I'm free but stuck can't choose)
My bad