Desolation Video (MV)

I've been sleeping in my bathtub
Fully clothed with the lights off
My bottles empty but I still can't seem to get drunk enough
To forget how f*cked up I am
And how I f*cking love
To hurt this way self sabotage, because i like it rough
I met this boy who cut himself then I licked his blood
We'd drink and fight every other night
But now were dead and done
I'm convinced that I'm a mess and that's exactly why he's gone
Now I'm starting to lose faith
That I'll ever find the one
I'm self destructive, suicidal, yeah I'm living dead
I like the guys who make me cry
And that are f*cked up in the head
I'm addicted to the suffering
Just laying in my bed
While the ceiling is still spinning
My messages on read

So hurt me
One last time
Hold my face
Between your hands
Kiss me
One last time
Say goodbye
And snap my neck