Arkaa - Psychotic Survival Lyrics

My own life never goes my way
Nobody knows me like you do
Got too many people to repay
Nothin' dat you ever said was true
What once was love is now just a memory
It's faded into a false reality
I know you hate me and had to quit
I get it too with all my shit
Mentally f*cked with since the start
I've been broken missin' a part
You f*cked with me, my health is gone
My mental state now just feels wrong
I lay in bed and wish I was dead
Not a care, since life ain't fair
I'm good as gone, no one would see
There's burning flames inside of me
Lurking death within my soul
I have lost all my control
Sadness owns our whole generation
It's like a f*cked up bad creation
No one knows just how to act
We all just deny the past
We all wish that life moved faster
F*cked like those who have a master
Emotions made my insides fried
An inch from a car I should've died
Scissor cuts are on my shoulder
I miss her man I just wanna hold her
I'm not alive I'm just survivin'
They aren't the same but I'm sure tryin'
Got no support not even family
They'd rather bitch than try to help me
Got turned away by the one I loved
Cuts on my arms because I was stunned
When I was a kid I used to shout
Like the time I should've drowned
If I was there id surely die
Nobody would bat an eye
Been alone for my whole life
Forced to deal with all my strife
If you hear this I hope you know
Yeah I love you but it won't show
I don't have a lot to say
I just can't live life by my own way
Kinda done but ill keep tryin'
Getting by with excessive cryin'
Living psychotic
Depressed and ironic
Shit goes down too hard
Now I think it is time
I'm like a retard
And my life is a crime
I'm humble like Kendrick
Far out like Arabic
I'm sippin' and crashin'
And trashin' and trippin'
My face is in pain and I live in the rain
All this shit feels wrong
F*ck you all I'm gone