The Nightmare I Wanted to Release Video (MV)

Feelin' guilty for guilt
That's a cycle that's gone eat me up
Inside 'till I kill
Myself
Never speak how I feel
Last time I did it came off as ungrateful
And so weak-willed
Ion even got no motivation no more
And my confidence is laying dead on the floor
I just wanna f*cking keep to myself
But it's personal if I do it now
If I speak up then I'm not tough enough
Have a feeling that they see through the bluff
Have a feeling that they sick and they tired
Heard what they say behind my back and it's eating me up inside
What if I take a life?
Will they care?
Will they cry?
Yeah I dream, fantasize
At the end of the night
W-What if I take a life?
Will they care?
Will they cry?
Yeah I dream, fantasize
At the end of the night
All I do is disappoint
I don't even see a point
I don't even see an end
When we makeup and conjoint
All I see is getting worse
Only see a bunch of hurt
I don't even understand
Why I still live on the earth