Ashford - Bliss Lyrics

I think I'll fake my death today so that I'll be left alone
Though I wish that I died yesterday 'cause I'd feel more at home
The ground seems so inviting and a casket would keep me warm
But I think I'll be okay if tomorrow I lay low
I'll just let the day go on without me and pretend I don't exist
Because the cold out there is bitter as my coffee and bites like my gin
And the faces out there look at me with judgment and surprise
I think you get these make it awfully enticing to stay in
All of this is by my design
All these fears conceived in my mind
Is life emptiness or is this just cowardice
I don't know but ignorance is bliss
Trust me when I say I miss you even though I don't text back
And I think of the fun things that we would do but I'm constantly attacked
By the worry that your memory has lied about who I am
And when you saw me you'd recall the truth and leave me like others have
All of this is my own fault
I've locked myself in a vault
And I've lost my confidence somewhere in this dark abyss
But sleeping here with the lights off is bliss
My car is buried in snow
At this point there's nowhere to go
I have all I need without having to be seen
And if i can't know myself why should anyone else?
I'll burn another bridge f*ck it I'll go off the grid
If no one knows who or where I am, that is
All of this is by my design
I promise I'm not losing my mind
Living in emptiness is easy even if it's cowardice
To just disappear, now that would be bliss
I think I'll fake my death today