Atomisk - Kids These Days Lyrics

It's hard business
Getting out of bed when you feel like this
It's past worth it
And it's picking at the seams telling me what I want more

I once had a dream
To tell me that I'm

I'm swimming but I'm four strokes past the bearing I've been
And this ocean keeps pushing me out with the tide
I feel my cracks as they divide

Sold short and anguished
All the work worthwhile succumbed to a battle hardly won
Bloodshot and spaced out
You'll never listen never learn
Only teach me what I'll spurn

I once had dream
Passed through voids and parsed through numbers

Can someone tell me where I begin?

I'm swimming but I'm four strokes past the bearing I've been
And this ocean keeps pushing me out with the tide
I feel my cracks as they divide