A-Train Da Kidd - Vulnerable Lyrics

Cuz I don't wanna cry...
I can't make this public...
I won't even try...
Butterflies in my stomach...
I won't show you the tears in my eyes
I won't let you know that side
I won't let you inside and I won't let you come by...

Vulnerable...
Vulnerable...
Vulnerable...
How come, how come, I can't get vulnerable...

Pains me to lay it out, hurts to say it aloud
I face the ground so you won't hear a sound...
Not a peep out my mouth, if you peek things go south
I won't leak the misery out, even if you not around...
I've never played this sorta round...
I have my head in the clouds
Living a fake life in my head alone in a crowd...
The waters rise and I drown, that's how they know I been down
Goof off like a clown, but when reality hits I can't be found...
I'm the remote control lost in your couch
Buttons being pushed on many accounts...
I don't know if I'm hell bound, but I must be cuz I can see hell's hounds...
I stop myself when ever I'm about to hurt
Cuz if I openly hurt it makes everything worse
People think your weak if you always on ya knees
I may stand 6 feet, but I'm too small to retreat
I let everything eat at me and beat on me...
Abuse is key for repeat, I self abuse
Self harm whatever words you wanna speak...
When I'm under I just wonder what you see in me...
Do you see my fear increase do you see me at least
Have you seen the beast I wrestle with every single week...
Invisible pain... The worst kinda way to deteriorate
An inferior face, with 0 grace, 110% hate...
Fell off kinda late, I am laced with a trace of pain...
It always drives me insane... Like who is really to blame...
I can't carry the weight... I'm tired of being chased...
This is not a date I wanna save...