The biggest lie i've told
Was telling everyone I loved them
I don't know what it is
I don't know how it feels
Ive been numb sunce i was ten
Nine years in the making
I know everybody's fear
And it's mine for the taking
Nobody knows mine
And all my lies
Nobody knows how the old me died
I killed him i committed suicide
In a room with plenty of space to hide
I'm not tryna be like you
I'm not tryna hide
When I loved you
But was it really true
I just run I just hide
Push everyone to the side
I'm so cold
I'm so sorry
I killed and mourned his life
With everything inside
Now I don't cry
I just lie
I fight
But this time it's worse
This time it hurts
I wanna say sorry
But will it work
I think I loved someone
I think they love me back
But will they be the one
That puts my heart back