Austin Lohmann - Loves Deception Lyrics

Alone for the first time facing my mistakes
Realizing the damage I couldn't take back
Struggled with drinking buried in selfish pain
I lost sight of what mattered and took you for granted

Reached out to you couldn't let you go
But broke a protective order trapped by my own flaws
The same mistakes that pushed you away
And set me on this path facing the weight of my choices

I thought we were bound by fate but I was blind
Fueling the fire that would lock me inside
Now I'm paying the price behind bars with no escape
Haunted by my actions that shattered our fate

I was once your Superman Clark in the flesh
You were my Lois our bond felt fresh
Wouldn't trade a second wouldn't hit rewind
But when you left me behind last thing on your mind

Busy chasing others while I was serving time
Seeing her with someone else cut deeper than a knife
But we were still married still living separate lives
I tried blaming you though you weren't in the wrong
Just hurt hiding from the pain all along

Loneliness overcame me sadness took ahold
Depression hit hard My spirit grew cold
Felt like a ghost nothing left to unfold
No fight left losing all control

Wanted it over trapped in despair then I felt God's hand reaching from the air
In the midst of the pain I learned through my mistakes
A lesson was shown as my soul began to wake

Locked in a cell staring at the wall
Thinking about my life trying to end it all tonight just letting it go
Then Jeremiah 2911 caught my eye
The words of hope when I was ready to go that saved my life
Almost slipped as the darkness took ahold
But God shined his light and darkness let go

From the dark I emerged learning how to cope
Each day grew brighter I found a flicker of hope
Prison walls echoed driving me insane
But I fought through the storm breaking through the pain

Fighting to survive I faced each endless night
The storm inside too heavy to contain
Battling demons trying to stay in the game

Two weeks in solitary nights full of fear
Felt like drowning with no one near
I held on tight saw God's light appear
From the depths I rose my path turning clear

But feeling abandoned in prison's cold embrace
You left me behind filling an empty space
With no way to escape I smoked K2 to numb the pain
Lost in my despair it seemed like the only way to stay sane

Needles pierced my skin Tattoos to kill time and cope with the shame
Each inked design a symbol of the pain I faced
Serving time leaving my mark in that broken place

You left me for another but I grew through the strain
Broke free from the sorrow embraced the gains

Love turned sour heartbreak became pain
Caught behind the bars of betrayal's domain
Abandoned and lost my marriage left shattered missing my son like nothing else mattered

In my sorrows I was drowning my chest felt crushed I was like Floyd searching for a breath
I'm in the depths of my suffering searching for the light
Lost in the dark battling endless nights

But through that darkness I started to believe
A flicker of hope giving me room to breathe
Through all the devastation found my redemption
A soul reborn without pretension

I was once your Superman Clark in his prime
You were my Lois back in that time
But now I'm free stronger than ever
Let go of the hurt I'm bound to endeavor

Fourteen months in a cage but my mind's still free
Had to break those chains to find the real me
Was lost in loves lies but now I see
There's more to life than what you did to me

You promised forever but left with ease
Took our dreams and brought me to my knees
But I stood back up found my own peace
Let go of the pain let my soul release

Out of the cell though the scars remain
Had to forgive myself to ease the pain
No longer bound by the past or shame

I won't be defined by the mistakes I've made
Paid my dues for the price I paid
But now I'm living in a brand-new way
Found redemption in the lowest of days

The road was dark but I found my stride
Let go of the anger pushed the pain aside
In the depths of despair I learned to thrive
A second chance now I'm fully alive

The past still haunts but I've found a new start
That love scarred me deep but it mended my heart
PTSD shadows the turmoil won't fade
Counseling helps but those scars still invade
Prison's grip left wounds in my mind
Fighting to heal leaving the pain all behind
I've learned to let go and walked my own way
Now I'm free from the darkness Now god is my way