I used to be a kid that would just feed into the hype
Of wanting all the girls and accolades
And even be the type of havoc
Who often believed the world was only black and white
Just like the ace of spades
Plagued with always trying to be right
I'm twenty (cough) years old and now I'm only yearning
To be accosted by my blessings
And give chrysanthemums during
And never when the show's over
Cause you're supposed to find beauty in the closure
Not big yourself up, word to Robert Loggia
Moreover, I make sure that I give out grace
Two times often as I need it
And never feel defeated
When my kinetic and potential energy feels depleted
Instead I find new ways to pick apart
And rearrange those blue days
I only spend my time focused on who stayed
And that I'm living in the time that I used to pray for
And realize nothing's really minor or major
Just an ebb and flow
More like a come and go
Maybe a kick and push
Yeah, I know that you know
That it take wisdom and introspection
To make sure that you practice what you preach
So that you can grow
Into the Moses or the Joseph of your family
Burdened with glorious purpose
Of tryna refurbish the greenery
That your eyes don't see
But 'cause your faith believes
It's able to maintain itself
And thrive more easily
But maybe it's just me
Digging for complex truth when simplicity's
All that's being offered
And I'm just sitting awkward
Cause I author pro and verse
That most of y'all won't even get
And thus this tale begets
Lessons learned from reform regrets
A little tete-a-tete
With the spirit man
And his mortal set
Wondering whose hand is truly blessed
Yes
Conversations I have
With flesh and spirit within
Wondering which one of us is gonna take the win
It's all about the fight between the God and the jinn
And who will rule the day when the inner conflict ends
A rumble between the doctor and his darker half
Of which the victor has the upper hand in the last laugh
The yin and yang, doing spirals
Not friends, not really rivals
Only two contrasting sides with only one title
Balance
I ain't never left the girls alone
When in the nightlife
I feel real alone
Urban Outfitters, shawty keeps my eyes prone
To every outfit shawtys wear
Stormtrooper clones
But I can't get enough lust or attention homes
I'm like a real estate Mexican
Adios
This Coke and this rum
Make my tummy hurt
In 20 years can I help my kids when tummy hurts
Or will I flex with all my houses and my rentals
Hertz
Temporary but it's scary feeling lonesome
But I won't feel insecure when I own some
But man I'd love it if I ever had my own son
Choosing God or the Djinn
The gin making spin
Like the crystal spinning glitter over my Yankee brim
Am I tanking man
Like a Tiananmen Square
My life could sink but the liquor like a Brillo is there
Am I a sinner
Beware
I want the glimmer and glow
Shining brighter then Jidenna's knees and his elbows
Please get a grip though
Decisions, litt though
I want the money and the fame
I can never let go
Conversations I have
With flesh and spirit within
Wondering which one of us is gonna take the win
It's all about the fight between the God and the jinn
And who will rule the day when the inner conflict ends
A rumble between the doctor and his darker half
Of which the victor has the upper hand in the last laugh
The yin and yang, doing spirals
Not friends, not really rivals
Only two contrasting sides with only one title
Balance