ava rose - would you rather Lyrics

Let me tell you about this place
It's where I go to save face
It's where I feel most alone
But you think I've made it home
It's this box you made for me
I tried to fit perfectly, but I never will

Lately I feel like a liar
Caught in my own crossfires
I'm not always true with you
But I don't know what else to do
Can't keep being what I'm not
It's heavy, and I've still got these shoes to fill

Would you rather I keep my life a secret
Or would you rather be a part of it
Would you rather we just drift apart
Or do you still want to have a place in my heart

I can't keep playing this sick game
I don't even recognize my name
Can't keep claiming these parts of me
When they're not really parts of me
There's nowhere for me to go
I just wish that you could know who I really am

Oh, why is this so hard
It shouldn't have to be this hard
I just want to tell you things
About me and what's happening
But you don't seem to care that much
That you're so out of touch with who I really am

Would you rather I keep my life a secret
Or would you rather be a part of it
Would you rather we just drift apart
Or do you still want to have a place in my heart
Would you rather I would stick around
Or would my voice become an unwanted sound
Would you rather I was out of your hair

If I was gone, would you even really care
Care
If I was gone, would you even really care