Sometimes late at night
When I'm alone
I toss and turn
Until I grab my phone
Wondering if you'll text or call
Wonder if you think of me
Even though I know we're done
I still think of what could be
Do you think about the past
And why we could never last
Regret what you didn't do
Even though you had no clue
No idea how to show
Just how much I meant to you
It's like I was on my own
With no one else in view
I was fighting by myself
In a marriage meant for two
Trying to solve problems
That I couldn't compute
Wanted it work
But nothing seemed to fit
Years of effort, but in the end
I still quit
Maybe we just weren't meant to be
Or maybe we lost ourselves in everything
Maybe creating a family meant more than we knew
And maybe that's why I can't handle seeing you
Should I have done more?
Instead of walking out the door
Give you everything I am
Even though you don't understand
Don't understand how it drains
To give and not receive
I was giving you my all
But it started killing me
I waited for a change
But when it never came
I distanced myself
Since you didn't feel the same
Subconsciously built a wall
To protect my head and heart
And before I even knew it
We were miles apart
My love for you was gone
And the attraction disappeared
Only saw you as a friend
And destroyed what we built
Never wanted a divorce
Seems like an easy fix
Hard work might matter
But we're not guaranteed the wish
Maybe we just weren't meant to be
Or maybe we lost ourselves in everything
Maybe creating a family meant more than we knew
And maybe that's why I can't handle seeing you