awkward peach - dust on my mirror Lyrics

I'm out of time with myself
17 years old struggling with mental health
Have i grown up from then
Or am i still the same
'Cuz i dont feel very sane

Staring into your eyes
But the dust on the mirror disguises them
From chubby cheeks to hollow cheekbones and back again
Been screaming who am i since i was 8 years old
I've wondered if ill ever understand my soul

Sewing stretch marks on thighs
Will i ever know whats right for me?
Will i ever know what you think of me now?

I hope im the girl you hoped you would be
I wish i could know what you think of me
I hope im enough but you'll never see
I lost you long ago

You were just two years of age
When they shoved the wires down your throat
Needles digging in your skin i dont know how you coped
But darling dont you cry

'Cuz im sorry that i hurt you so
And im sorry that i left you alone

I hope im the girl you hoped you would be
But you deserve so much more than me
Your deep blue eyes stare back at me
Could i do to you what i did to me?

Could i do to her what i did to me?