BadTrip - Nebula Lyrics

When I first saw her
Didnt think nothing of it
Because it wasnt something
To even consider a crush
Over time can't deny
Feelings came to the surface
Not sure if it was worth to get all hung up
I had it bad had it bad
And she didn't take notice
My attraction wasn't noted
Although I was too devoted
To the thought of becoming
Something that I really wasnt
For the sake of her loving
But she treated me like a cousin
Listen
She was a white girl living in her white world
And I was a black guy with my head in the sky
I never worked up the courage to speak
I never worked up thr courage to be
More than just friends
Stuck playing pretend
Had to sit by and play nice with the guys
As she dated had to wait and anticipate
The break ups
A shoulder to cry on
Was all I had to give but
I took what I could get
Knowing she would never be my misses
She was a white girl living in her white world
And I was a black guy with my head in the sky
And now we're friends past tense
Stuck wondering what I did
But I acted like a jerk
And the friendship wouldn't work
I heard she found the love of her life
Someone I didn't like
I couldnt fight the good fight
And pretend it was alright
As..
Conversations got harder
Our distance grew farther
Why do I even bother
When fish could be larger
Uh
I moved left and she moved right
I mean the difference was like
I was day and and she was night
Slim change that anything
Could ever reignite
And I'm stuck wondering
What could of been
If I ever spoke up
To change the outcome back then
Would we be a family?
Have a couple kids?
Would we have animosity?
Always at ends?
It is what it is
And I cannot remit
Can only reminisce
When I think bout this
I said
It is what it is
And I cannot remit
Can only reminisce
When I think bout this