Banks - The Altar Album Lyrics

Open up your eyes
There's nothing on my body left to see
I tried a thousand times
I tried to say 'I love you', but you didn't hear me
And you're passive-aggressive
Convinced me other people didn't care about me

And you're passive-aggressive
You're passive-aggressive
You're passive-aggressive

And to think you would get me to the altar
Like I follow you around like a dog that needs water
But admit it that you wanted me smaller
If you would have let me grow
You could have kept my love

Ode to my two thighs
I still want you to kiss 'em cause they're lonely
And why you so surprised?
And when I said I miss, you you never believed me?
And we were so depressive
You and me together we were gemini feed

And we were so depressive
We were so depressive
We were so depressive, hey

And to think you would get me to the altar
Like I follow you around like a dog that needs water
But admit it that you wanted me smaller
If you would have let me grow
You could have kept my love

And to think you would get me to the altar
Like I follow you around like a dog that needs water
But admit it that you wanted me smaller
If you would have let me grow
You could have kept my love

And to think you would get me to the altar
Like I follow you around like a dog that needs water
But admit it that you wanted me smaller
If you would have let me grow
You could have kept my love

I got two diamonds and a feather
Gimme three reasons why we ain't together
I push my body through the floor like
Cause I f*ck with myself more than anybody else

You're on the corner waiting for my love
I put two walls behind you just to lean on
You're gonna need em cuz I stood you up
Cause I f*ck with myself more than anybody else

Cuz I f*ck with myself more than anybody else
It's all love
I used to care what you think about me
It's all love
Cause my love so good
So I f*ck with myself more than anybody else

I caught you fishing through the fodder
This whole relationship is under water
You're facing ages in your third strike
Cause I f*ck with myself more than anybody else

Cause I f*ck with myself more than anybody else
It's all love
I used to care what you think about me
It's all love
Cause my love so good
So I f*ck with myself more than anybody else

I used to have a nickel for what you say, baby
Your words would burn me in the third degree
Now baby look what it's come to
Cause my love is the one
My love is the one

So I f*ck with myself more than anybody else
It's all love
I used to care what you think about me
It's all love
Cause my love so good
So I f*ck with myself more than anybody else

Please call me ya baby baby baby
Look how long that you have kept me waiting
I'm all in, look at all that I have given
Oh, I know your love before I kissed you
And now your have gone and made me miss you
Come love me, baby come love me

Cause I'm love sick
And I ain't even ashamed
And I'm caught up, for some time in your sheets
Would you been down to spend all your time with me?
Cause I'm love sick
Cause I'm love sick
And I ain't even ashamed
And I'm caught up for some time in your sheets
Would you been down to spend all your time with me?
Cause I'm love sick

Please call me ya baby baby baby
Look how long that you have kept me waiting
I'm all in, look at all that I have given
Oh, I know your love before I kissed you
And now your have gone and made me miss you
Come love me, baby come love me

Cause I'm love sick
And I ain't even ashamed
And I'm caught up, for some time in your sheets
Would you been down to spend all your time with me?
Cause I'm love sick
Cause I'm love sick
And I ain't even ashamed
And I'm caught up for some time in your sheets
Would you been down to spend all your time with me?
Cause I'm love sick

Cause I'm love sick
And I ain't even ashamed
And I'm caught up for some time in your sheets
Would you been down to spend all your time with me?
Cause I'm love sick

I foresee it's true, that you would love me better
If I couldn't screw
All your moves that make me wanna run away
But I got stuck with faulty legs
I believe it's true that you would screw me
If I let you in my bedroom
And if I did then do I try to move away?
Cause I know you like mind games

Do I ever have to notice?
I've been standing here and I don't know why
Did you ever even see me try?
Do you-oh-oh, see me now?
Do you-oh-oh, see me now?
Do you-oh-oh, see me now?
See me now, see me now, oh, see me now?
Oh-oh-oh-oh-oh...

Better look amusing cause my addiction to
These contradictions make it confusing
And if I walk away I'm scared I will find other muses
Cause I know you like olden days
I don't understand, you claim that I'm a handful
When you show up all empty-handed
The way you say you love me
Like you've just been reprimanded
Cause I know you like mind games

Do I ever have to notice?
I've been standing here and I don't know why
Did you ever even see me try?
Do you-oh-oh, see me now?
Do you-oh-oh, see me now?
Do you-oh-oh, see me now?
See me now, see me now, oh, see me now?
Do you-oh-oh, see me now?
Do you-oh-oh, see me now?
Do you-oh-oh, see me now?
See me now, see me now, see me now?
Oh-oh-oh-oh-oh...

Do you, oh, oh
Do you, oh, oh
Do you, oh, oh
See me now, see me now, see me now?

Hey, I heard it from the state
They told me you were never gonna let me get away
And if you took me fishing you would never give me bait
I had to get away, I had to get away, ay, ay

Hey, you try to compensate
For thinking with your one brain, I should decapitate
You showed me all your letters that I should've confiscated
Both my eyes were weighted, and I had to get away

Talking to ears that have been deaf
For as long as I can remember
A self-medicated handicap, so I speak to myself
And I try so hard to get his stupid deaf ears to hear
That I've become illiterate, I've become dumb
Ya hate me, ya hate me, ya hate me

When I come through, you were dark blue
And I saved you, from your darker days
Born to, take care of you
Or I thought so, baby, it was just a phase

Hey, I heard it from the state
They told me you were never gonna let me get away
And if you took me fishing you would never give me bait
I had to get away, I had to get away, I had to get away

Hey, you try to compensate
For thinking with your one brain, I should decapitate
You showed me all your letters that I should've confiscated
Both my eyes were weighted, and I had to get away

Shut down by a guy I never wanted to kiss
Not gonna hear the singing of his ringing triumphing
And I'm chugging along in a train
And I'm heading the wrong way, and I'm a trainwreck

And my heart goes beat, beat, beat
To the music of this sad same song
It's quite depressing, there's no fixing to the problem
When you're talking to an idiot

When I come through, you were dark blue
And I saved you, from your darker days
Born to, take care of you
Or I thought so, baby, it was just a phase
Saving, only made me
Just a dreamer, but I soon found out
That the traintracks were behind me
Tried to warn me, oh, but my ears went out

(But then my ears went out, out, out...)

When I come through, you were dark blue
And I saved you, from your darker days
Born to, take care of you
Or I thought so, baby, it was just a phase

Hey, I heard it from the state
They told me you were never gonna let me get away
And if you took me fishing you would never give me bait
I had to get away, I had to get away, I had to get away

Hey, you try to compensate
For thinking with your one brain, I should decapitate
You showed me all your letters that I should've confiscated
Both my eyes were weighted, and I had to get away

This is not about me
I can see you taking it personally
I see you put your pride aside
I'll wait a minute while you try to compensate
No, this is not about me
I see you picking at my missing piece
To the puzzle that you use for life
I'll wait a minute while you try to come for mine

All this distance
Treated all bad
And I've been covered
Second
Don't want to live a lie
Bruised and battered
And it don't matter
Don't deny I've said too much
Darling, ask me why

Mmm, this is not about us
Mmm, this is not about us
Mmm, this is not about us
Mmm, this is not about us
Mmm

This is not about me
Or the way that you could never play it cool
I could see you wanting me to say
That me walking away was a big mistake
No, this is not about me
I see you clinging to your pinch of hope
Trying to get up in my bed
You should be thinking of a way of moving on instead

All this distance
Treated all bad
And I've been covered
Second
Don't want to live a lie
Bruised and battered
And it don't matter
Don't deny I've said too much
Darling, ask me why

Mmm, this is not about us
Mmm, this is not about us
Mmm, this is not about us
Mmm, this is not about us
Mmm, this is not about

What you told me
It never mattered
I never needed
This is not about
That you were tongue-tied
And what you sold me
I never bought it
This is not about
How I found out
That you were vacant
I never stood up
This is not about
All the times I tried to prove to you

Mmm, this is not about us
Mmm, this is not about us
Mmm, this is not about us
Mmm, this is not about us
Mmm, this is not about us
Mmm, this is not about us
Mmm, this is not about us
Mmm, this is not about us
Mmm, this is not about us

Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah

Tell me what you want from me
I think you need a weaker girl
Kind of like the girl I used to be
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
I'ma let you do what you wanna do
I'ma let you say what you wanna say
'Cause I'ma need a bad motherf*cker like me

I let you go
You can tell them something 'bout the way you moved on
I let you go
Tell them you were mad about the way I grew strong
Oh, nah, nah
I think you need a weaker girl, yeah
'Cause I'ma need a bad motherf*cker like

I'ma need a bad, I'ma need a bad
I'ma need a bad, I'ma need a bad
Motherf*cker like me, hey, hey
Motherf*cker like me, hey, hey
I'ma need a bad, I'ma need a bad
I'ma need a bad, I'ma need a bad
Motherf*cker like me, hey, hey
Motherf*cker like me, hey, hey

Tell me where you wanted to go
I bet you wanted me to follow
Kinda like the girl I used to be
Yeah yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
I'ma let you know what you don't wanna know
We just gonna see what we gonna see
'Cause I'ma need a bad motherf*cker like me

I let you go
You can tell them something 'bout the way you moved on
I let you go
Tell them you were mad about the way I grew strong
Oh, nah, nah
I think you need a weaker girl, yeah
'Cause I'ma need a bad motherf*cker like me
Hey, me
I think you need a weaker girl, yeah
'Cause I'ma need a bad motherf*cker like

I'ma need a bad, I'ma need a bad
I'ma need a bad, I'ma need a bad
Motherf*cker like me, hey, hey
Motherf*cker like me, hey, hey
I'ma need a bad, I'ma need a bad
I'ma need a bad, I'ma need a bad
Motherf*cker like me, hey, hey
Motherf*cker like me, hey, hey

I'ma need a bad, I'ma need a bad
I'ma need a bad, I'ma need a bad
Motherf*cker like me, hey, hey
Motherf*cker like me, hey, hey
I'ma need a bad, I'ma need a bad
I'ma need a bad, I'ma need a bad
Motherf*cker like me, hey, hey
Motherf*cker like me, hey, hey

Underwater, consuming all my kind
Destined for alterations
And my mind ain't aligned for her daughter
I know I'm mother earth, I see the weather

So I'm not gonna cover up the freckles on my faces
I covered all the bases

Follow me to my bed
'Cause every time you fall, I'll be holdin' your head up
And when will you get tired of feeling bad?
And every time you fall, follow me

Follow me to my bed
'Cause every time you fall, I'll be holdin' your head up
And when will you get tired of feeling bad?
And every time you fall, follow me

He's so hollow
My baby mated blind until he wasted fate
So I'm left behind until he curse my sorrow
But I know I'm mother earth, I see the weather

So I won't let you pull up in all of my safest places
I, I covered all the bases

Follow me to my bed
'Cause every time you fall, I'll be holdin' your head up
And when will you get tired of feeling bad?
And every time you fall, follow me

Follow me to my bed
'Cause every time you fall, I'll be holdin' your head up
And when will you get tired of feeling bad?
And every time you fall, follow me

Hey, hey, hey, hey

Never came around to make this house into a home
Put you on a pedestal and set you on a throne
I found all your skeletons, your closet full of bones
I see you take pride in bloody eyes, I know you're stoned

I can hear resentment in your tone
Said I'd never make it on my own
Maybe I'm just better off alone, too numb to deal
Too numb to feel the knife in my back

Judas, hey
Oh, oh, Judas, hey
Judas, hey
Oh, oh, Judas, hey

I can see you coming from about a mile away
And all the mystique of your pretentiousness is fading
Reminiscing all the backwards ways you made me stay
Begging me for thread, I think you need to change your brain

I can hear resentment in your tone (Oh)
Said I'd never make it on my own (Oh)
Maybe I'm just better off alone, too numb to deal
Too numb to feel the knife in my back

Judas, hey
Oh, oh, Judas, hey
Judas, hey
Oh, oh, Judas, hey

Don't need you to make an effort, this should be effortless
Nothing can last forever and you're such a pessimist
I was your prized possession, and who was your exorcist?
Thought you was heaven-sent, you left for the hell of it

I can hear resentment in your tone
Said I'd never make it on my own
Maybe I'm just better off alone, too numb to deal
Too numb to feel the knife in my back

Judas, hey
Oh, oh, Judas, hey
Judas, hey
Oh, oh, Judas, hey
Judas, hey
Oh, oh, Judas, hey
Judas, hey
Oh, oh, Judas, hey

Hey, hey, hey, hey
Hey, hey, hey, hey

What do you want? I wanna know
You messed me up when you let me go
Now you come back 'cause your ego is stroked
From the way that I cracked after you let me go

And I know the things that we could be
But I wish you woulda cheated on me
'Cause at least I wouldn't have you haunting me
Now you're haunting me, babe

What do you want? I wanna know
I brought a dandelion you could blow
While you stay mourning for something creative
But memories baited from your loneliness, I see

And I know the things that we could be
But I wish you woulda cheated on me
'Cause at least I wouldn't have you haunting me
Now you're haunting me, babe

It's like I wanna know I'm someone
It's like I wanna know I'm some
Someone you have to keep, I'm on my knees
Turn the lights out on me, the lights out on me
I'm blacked out

I see again, you make me wait
You make me wait, dangling on a string
Begging for you to come back to the ring
'Til I'm salivating for attention that you won't bring

And I know the things that we could be
But I wish you woulda cheated on me
'Cause at least I wouldn't have you haunting me
Now you're haunting me, babe

You won't come back, you're not coming
I waited up to say your name
You won't come back, you're not coming
I waited up for you to say my name
You won't come back, you're not coming
I waited up to say your name
You won't come back, you're not coming
I waited up for you to say my name

It's like I wanna know I'm someone
It's like I wanna know I'm some
Someone you have to keep, I'm on my knees
Turn the lights out on me, the lights out on me
I'm blacked out

I started all the wars, I started all the wars
I've been getting messages from my deep waters
I'd be a resentful caretaker
Blame me for your false indicators
You mistaking all my mistakes for my crooked nature

Oh my god, I think I saw a ghost
Follow me everywhere I go
Don't even try to get creative
I smell a clown looking goofy, dressed up as a native

Why'd you call me here? You don't even know
Acting like a fool when you mull it over
Make it go away, you won't even know
Baby looking cool smoking on a clover

I started all the wars, I started all the wars
I've been getting messages from my deep waters
I'd be a resentful caretaker
Blame me for your false indicators
You mistaking all my mistakes for my crooked nature

Oh my god, I think I saw a ghost
Why you here walking around on my home street?
Pardon me
Cut your shoulder, you've been affected
I smell the chemicals, I don't see miracles
I'm at the pinnacle, you're so material
Oh did you get your money?
Yeah, yeah, yeah

I started all the wars, I started all the wars
I've been getting messages from my deep waters
I'd be a resentful caretaker
Blame me for your false indicators
You mistaking all my mistakes for my crooked nature

Oh, it seems a long time ago
Oh, we didn't know
Before we had seen anything
We believed in everything
All those times you warmed my hand
Maybe things weren't easy as they seem

We backed each other to the hilt
We backed each other to the hilt
Now I live in this house we built

Hated you for leavin' me
You were my muse for so long
Now I'm drained creatively
I miss you on my team
Hated you for walkin' out
I blew up and you were gone
So they say it's the industry
But I miss you on my team

People say we're better off, you couldn't keep up
I still keep one broken piece
The one that fits in that chip on your shoulder
When we made our master plans
Is this where you thought we would be standing?

We backed each other to the hilt
We backed each other to the hilt
Now I live in this house we built

Hated you for leavin' me
You were my muse for so long
Now I'm drained creatively
I miss you on my team
Hated you for walkin' out
I blew up and you were gone
They say it's just the industry
But I miss you on my team

We started this together now you're gone
And when we said forever we were naive
You saw me as a superstar
And I was a case you helped them to see

Hated you for leavin' me
You were my muse for so long
Now I'm drained creatively
But I miss you on my team

Always told you not to love me
Now look what you made me do
I got poison in my pocket, told you I was bad news
My demeanor made you wait, but the consequences stayed
I killed everything we were

Baby, murder was a case
Baby, murder was a case
Baby, murder was a case

So you like the fear of falling
But you stand there looking dumb
Why'd you come here in the first place?
Baby, I am not the one
How can you not walk away after everything I've done?

It's been 27 hours since we even saw the sun
Since we even saw the sun
Since we even saw the sun

Tears you cry rely on my disdain
While we waited, days that never came
Time just flies, but I still carry on

It's been 27 hours
Since we even saw the sun
Since we even saw the sun
Since we even saw the sun
Since we even saw the sun
Since we even saw