It's been about a year
Since you came here
To spend our winter break
Together
You were supposed to see me on your birthday
Which also happened
To be Valentine's day
And to be fairly honest
It's kinda hard to forget
With this gift that I got you
I wanted to somehow prove to you
That I've changed
After slowly convincing myself
That I am
Somewhat stronger
And that I am
Capable of acting
In spite of everything that's in my heart
I wanted to hurt you
Just a little bit
But you didn't care
And when your train finally came
We went to your small hotel room
That you had to share
And we fell in love
All over again
And now
That I've completely submerged myself
In cold nothingness
I really can tell that this was the best thing that I've ever felt
I remember running to my boarding house
Through the old town
With faint lights
Reflected on the wet ground
It didn't snow
Just like now
As I dragged my feet across the ground
On our last day
Together
I remember thinking
It might be over soon (It might be over soon)
No
It was certain
I was sure
After dismissing multiple phone calls
From my mother
We finally melted
Together
And I couldn't tell that I would break your heart a couple of months from now
Because when you sleep on the moon you can't really tell that it's full