Now that I have made it out to be your fault
I've choked in bitter words for far too long.
Try to resist this, I try to not look back.
Our eyes have never met, our words unsaid.
And I kick myself to sleep.
I have watched you, did you know?
I wish I had a reason to hate your guts
because then I would be right and you'd be wrong.
I can't remember a time when I was free
of these thoughts that entangle me.
This is the best time I have ever known thus far.