I don't think happiness is real
Cause let me tell you
I sure don't cry in the shower cause I like the way it feels
Do you think in good time I'll heal?
You might need a better watch
Cause it feels like I've been an inpatient for years
There's no silver lining
I guess I'll put my pain in writing
I've run out of better ways to reach you
There's no silver lining
So, what's the point in even trying?
You're not in this hole I fell into
You don't know what I'm going through
Please don't visit if you're bringing another phony smile
I know I've been here a while but that's not helping anyone
Please don't visit I can't stand it
Just leave me alone with it all
Nobody likes a hospital
Just me and my fellow patients
Bad shape and comfort deprived
So vacant, dead inside
But feel alive enough to write
Breathe it deep into your lungs
The bleach and anxious loved ones
There's a billion ways I could think of to die
Rotting away in a psych ward wasn't my first choice
But sure, I can give it a try
One day this brain has got to go
It's got to go