Nothing Ventured Video (MV)

It was one or two or three or six or 12
I pretend to not remember
Gut punch just fast enough to hurt
Total utter retraction into myself
But soon enough I won't feel shitty anymore
Any more than I have been before
Lying on the floor, I was lying on the floor
I was dumbfounded and gone
Maybe I will see you in a year or two and
Everything will be different
After the 'hey' all will be conveyed through your expression
If there's nothing ventured there's nothing gained
It's so obvious now
Semi apathetic, so obsessive, tangled up inside
One thing I keep getting wrong
So painfully fundamental
I thought I had it figured out but who does not really ever
I can that see what's in front of me is entirely in my head
So good so bad too good too bad for them anyway

Maybe it was as right as I felt underneath, it does not mean I could have had it then
But I think that I could now
But my wants they're becoming just that
I know their place in everything
I know their place in everything