Benjix - Dreaming Lyrics

I've been dreaming
You've been cheating
I've been screaming
You've been leaving
I've been scheming
You've been sleeping
I've been dreaming
And you've been cheating

Nah
Yeah You telling me
All these things are so true
But I know you've been lying
And I feel like I'm nothing
Oh
I be trying
And you be lying
Tell me I'm nothing
You something
I'm slowing
You owning
You going
I'm hoping
I'm something

Why
Are these thoughts in my head
Can't sleep at night
I lay
There thinking
Wait How am I not even dead yet
Oh
One bullet to the brain
Do it again
Now they think I'm insane
Cuz all my brand new songs
Have not reached the surface yet
Just GO

I be grinding
I'd be lying if I said I was fine
I be doing everything
But
I kill myself everyday
I be doing it my way
And I'm just trying to let it all go
What am I even doing here
Bro I don't even know

I've been trying to find myself for so long
Three years in the making
Yeah you know that I
Be thinking long term
In the end
I be making amends
With all these voices in my head.
You won't believe what they said

Cause I've been sitting in my bed
And I've been thinking
Am I really here
Or is my brain just messing with my head
But now I really fear.
Where am I even going in this life
I don't really know
I hope it's to the top
But this feels like hell.
I just want time to slow down

I've been dreaming
You've been cheating
I've been screaming
You've been leaving
I've been scheming
You've been sleeping
I've been dreaming
And you've been cheating

Just wanna know what's going on inside my head at night
Is it lack of sleep or do I just not like the parasite
Crawling in my skin
I feel like I could die over again
Cause 3 or 4 long years ago
Is when I died the first time
Oh!

I be getting it
I be writing hits,
I be Getting it quick
Yeah You know I'm getting lit
Oh

Yeah you thought I was nothing
I'm something
You're nothing
I'm going growing
And then you slowing
I'm repeating my verses
Owning it
Oh

I've been dreaming
Yeah
I've been dreaming
I've been dreaming
I've been dreaming
Woah
I've been dreaming
Yeah
I've been dreaming
I've been dreaming
I've been dreaming
Woah

Look I just want to let you know whether you're a fan of my music or not
You know depression and anxiety are real things
And so I go through it everyday
And I make my music
The whole point of my music
Whether it be in English or Spanish
Is to help those that you know at least feel that they are a little upset
That they can be a little bit happy
And I know that we can make it through it
Together.