Big Kidd - I Pray Lyrics

I wake up everyday in so much pain
Thinking will it ever stop I'm so stuck aye
Just overthinking every second I honestly wanna cry
I find it so hard everyday to not slip and lose my mind
Nothing ever seems to work and that's what makes me broken
I feel so much hurt inside and I ain't even jokin
If a bitch do me wrong I would honestly bleed her open
I can't trust a soul that's why when love opens I close it
There's a ton of pain going through me every hunnid seconds
And if I had the guts I swear on it I would f*ckin neck it
I never been the type to strap and pack a bunch a weapons
But i feel like inflicting hurt pumping a bunch heads in
I ask myself why I'm such a piece of shit
And I ain't talkin drugs when I say I needa fix
I barely cope and they don't know that this shit is hard
That's why you always see me zoned out I feel so ripped apart
My brains so far gone and I don't see no guidance
I feel so f*cked up and I'm just so tired
I got so many problems that no body knows about
But I don't say shit and maybe that's why I'm closing down
I pray to god but I know he don't hear me
And if he hear me then why don't he clear me
What am I supposed to do
I always f*ck up and lose the ones I'm closest to
They told me that they're down but I knew all along
I would really lose my mind if they choose to do me wrong
Just thinkin to myself is she just another bitch
Is she gonna lie to me should I go take the f*ckin risk
If they f*ck me over ima have to hurt them
Hurt her, hurt him, ima have to murk them
I don't feel no happiness I just feel pain
It ain't nothing but guilt in me I just feel blame
Laying in the dark thinking about all my problems
Going over it a million times how I'm gonna solve them
Maybe
Maybe they know my pain now
And I'm this f*ckin close to throwin all my hate out
I pray to god but I know he don't hear me
And if he hear me then why don't he clear me
What am I supposed to do
I always f*ck up and lose the ones I'm closest to