Bird Party - New/Original Lyrics

I'm a toxic person
I probably changed too late
I understand you don't wanna know me
But I still can't help but hate

Acting like I don't regret
Saying my life is shit
All I have is guilt and sweat
But that never helped me fix it

I'm sorry you had to see me
Between pills and gin
I wasn't fair to you
Your wrath is a righteous sin

Nice to know I'm better now
You're better off where you are
I wanna get out of the car
I hope you've made it far

Grabbing at the new original
I really miss that feeling
Grabbing at the new original
Somethings got me breathing

Grabbing at the new original
I really miss that feeling
Grabbing at the new original
I can't stand my breathing

Getting better now
But don't keep waiting
Getting better how
Is no one waiting

I'm a toxic person
I probably changed too late
You don't know me
Bastard-hood is my fate

Hell I don't know
Are you taking long hiatus
Are you coming back
You don't seem to miss this

You know the expression
You're a hole in the ground
You just take things in
And never give out

Hell I don't know
Clearly more than a hiatus
You aren't coming back
I wouldn't miss this

Here it is now
I'd rather own up
Than step off
Falling in the crater

Grabbing at the new original
I really miss that feeling
Grabbing at the new original
Somethings got me breathing

Grabbing at the new original
I really miss that feeling
Grabbing at the new original
I can't stand my breathing