empty & numb Video (MV)

I just walked outside and
I felt the wind on my face
I know it hurts so bad
Don't wanna fight through the pain
But I don't wanna do this no more

I just walked outside and
I felt the wind on my face
I know it hurts so bad
Don't wanna fight through the pain
But I don't wanna do this no more
I don't wanna do this no more

I thought I found the one, but I was so damn wrong
I felt her pain along her side for too long
I saw her face last night, but she was on my phone, it's not right
So I fight, fight, fight, all alone, in the end, we die

And if you are afraid to die then you can never live your life
I wanna find out someday soon, is she gone? Or alive?
Still I don't wanna feel this way but I still gotta fight
But you could never really live if all you do is survive

I just walked outside and
I felt the wind on my face
I know it hurts so bad
Don't wanna fight through the pain
But I don't wanna do this no more
I don't wanna do this no more

Aye, Bam!
I ain't saying "I'm gon' kill myself"
But if I did, would you care?
Plenty nights I wanna talk
But ain't no one even there
I done came up from the bottom
Thank the man upstairs
Feel like I'm 'bout to make an
Army with this pain I share
That's real

I'm finna make a hundred thousand then I'm giving it back
I brought the game into my school, now, they agree I can rap
I feel entitled to my story
Made it right out the trap
I wanna tell my future kids about the past that I had
That's real

Yeah, that's real
Everything 'bout what you're witnessing right now is real, I promise you that
17 months by myself, 17 months I been doing this by myself
And I'm finna make it by myself too, I'm finna make it man, brrrrra