I don't know why I feel so numb inside
When I wake up a little piece of me dies
When I go to sleep I'm afraid to close my eyes
I'm vulnerable and nothing that I do subsides
The feelings that I be feeling all up in my inside my mind
What if I don't get up tomorrow and truly die
I say that I'm okay but everyone knows that's a lie
I put up a wall just so they don't see me cry
My wings are broken I fall every time I try to fly
I been climbing and trying but I can't reach the sky
They keep telling me I can make it to new heights
But they don't know what it's like they've never had to fight
I'm scared everyday that I will not see tomorrow
I look at my watch feeling like I'm wasting time
But they say time is money
Like a loan it feels borrowed
No matter what I do, I can't go bury my sorrows
There's a couple people I owe apologies too
But we ain't speaking now either way it's overdue
I never said sorry now I'm feeling so dumb
I never realized I could become so numb
I don't feel the same (no no)
I hate myself again (no no)
See my demons but I can't run (can't run)
Lately I've been feeling so numb (so numb)
I been there
Trust me I know what it feels like
To feel like you are worthless and nobody cares
Sitting in your room crying screaming "this ain't fair"
I had to learn myself that life really takes balance
You can only go so far when you got talent
Life ain't always happiness and f*cking beauty pageants
If you want something realize that it takes practice
But I don't get it the vision wasn't inside my mind
Look at my watch and it's ticking - I am still wasting time
I've never looked and saw a mountain I couldn't climb
When the color fades I slowly become blind
I replay all the memories I left in my mind
And honestly it's been a long time coming
I'm walking in circles but sometimes I feel I'm running
My wings and my legs are both broke - I can't run
I don't know what I've done to become this numb
I don't feel the same (no no)
I hate myself again (no no)
See my demons but I can't run (can't run)
Lately I've been feeling so numb (so numb)