Before I Knew Video (MV)

Cause it feels like a story the way that my life's been recently
Yeah it's been pain free, no more suicidal thoughts
Just more thoughts of, of bettering me
There ain't no one forgetting in me
I'm the guy that they call the prince
Broken Prince 196
And that's all you've ever known since
So bring back the old good vibes of living just
Down by the beaches
Six in the headphones blasting
But I had more vibes when I actually seen it
And you know when you see me back on
A stage
I'll be doing way more than grealish
196, don't know where it came from, where it started
I've just done it cause, I actually feel it
It seemed it, kinda beat-ish, in my feelings
That's why I chose them cause they're team-ish
When I was there it felt kinda squeamish
Cause I beat it, I was broken
Sorry, I mean it
If I weren't the one that beat it
Then the team did, for real
I was rapping bout maybach's
Way before I knew what a Maybach was
Told me to bring it so I said
Just bring it and did it like the rock
But I was gonna talk on the last six years
Dead that coz that shit's too long
But I ain't tryna start no beef
Want any answer for that
Just cause
I've been doing this rap shit way too much
Must feel like I'm topping the charts
I've been writing in the worst of my moments
Just been writing about pain in my heart
Like where do I start
Cause where I began it just seemed too hard
I had no flow and they said it wouldn't really work out(bro nah this sounds calm)
But look into my lifeline, look what my life's like
Gonna break out like a wrestling star
17K on my wrist just ain't for my lifestyle
This ain't no Jeremy Kyle
I've been talking too much about pain in my heart
But it's just too much, don't know how to heal it
Been talking to way too many just to cut me off
Don't know how I'm feeling
I was rapping bout Maybach's
Way before I knew what a Maybach was
Told me to bring it so I said
Just bring it and did it like the rock
But I was gonna talk on the last six years
Dead that coz that shit's too long
But I ain't tryna start no beef
Want any answer to that
Just cause
This girl got me sitting on Snapchat, Whatsapp, Insta
Telling me to call her a queen, f*ck that
I ain't really into that shit
She's on OnlyFans selling her feet
On to guys who are sending her P
Losing their dollar but they could be on street
What's the odds that they've done it before
But the way life's been, surprised to ain't me
10 pound an hour on Insta
She's always talking about this findom shit(what's that)
She made 10K from that last month
Like girl, are you getting all this from pics
Gucci bags and Versace jeans
She just met the guy of her dreams
Got a job out in Zante working
Now she's been flexing with all of her team
Come on then girl, when we linking
Check your phone, what's the ETA
What you wanna be
Friends or bae
So tell me love Island, let's hit up a date
I was being blackmailed for years
And in one night, man I made that back
I lost like 5K down on the PayPal
My bank statements, can't backtrack
Had to get the feds involved
Like I said before man, I just spit truth
I had paranoia every morning
Just summit like Ayman and Ruth
16 on the back of my jumper
Why the f*ck are you questioning that
Laying in my bed so restless
Stress on my mind, I just can't relax
Cause I've had all this pain for years
How are you noticing this just now
See I'm quiet when we're first meeting
Two weeks in and I get too loud
Of recent, I felt so pointless
The time on my watch been broken
They broke me way back then
That's why I've never really been too open
I could've gone harder, know that it worked
But the whip just would've gone harder
Out late night, early morning shifts
Like what would you rather
I was rapping about Maybach
Way before I knew what a Maybach was
Told me to bring it, so I said
Just bring it and did it like the rock
Cause I was gonna talk on the last six years
Dead thay cause that shit's too long
But I ain't trying to start no beef
If you want any answer for that
Just cause