Buddhakai - I Just Wanna Breathe (feat. Ashley Deuell) Lyrics

Now when they first MET it was casual
Bouncing ideas off of one another like they're both playing racket ball
Really compatible, laughing like uncontrollable children talking and listening hoping to keep it innocent but
She had a smile like a shining light, but he was married with a wife and three tiny tikes
And every morning every night one of the many fights lights another fuse and blows up on em dynamite
So here we go here we go like a roller coaster another drink another inch of us moving closer
And I'm what I'm feeling though I'm not supposed to
Standing close to the edge and we feel like jumping over
So many voices in his head and yet none of em sober
Pushing me to do it like a bulldozer
Arms wrapped around his neck and his shoulders
Trapped Feeling like he's a criminal getting pulled over
And I'm tired of the pain sick of lying to her face baby I just wanna breathe
And we fighting everyday make it hard to wanna stay maybe time that I ought to leave
And I'm tired of the pain sick of lying to her face baby I just wanna breathe
And we fighting everyday make it hard to wanna stay maybe time I leave
And now regret got him feeling weak. Feeling guilty kissing his daughter on her cheek
His eldest son knows there's something wrong. It's getting harder pretending there's nothing going on
Gone for a long stretch and mom says dad called, still in the office that's non sense
Guilt monsters eating away his conscience So many lies and memorizing the long list
See, Broken promises lead to some broken hearts, families'll bleed when they're torn apart
But he don't feel it when he's next to her. He just delete it after texting her
Feel like he's speeding but it's just a blur Heart beating so fast that his breathing hurts
Runs to her for some peace but he's feeling worse Underneath the sheets, what a bitter sweet evil curse lemme go
And I'm tired of the pain sick of lying to her face baby I just wanna breathe
And we fighting everyday make it hard to wanna stay maybe time that I ought to leave
And I'm tired of the pain sick of lying to her face baby I just wanna breathe
And we fighting everyday make it hard to wanna stay maybe time I leave
She ain't stupid, and it isn't like she doesn't know. She got the code to his mobile phone
But all she knows is this broken home And she ain't ready r'ready to do it all alone
There was a time when she used to be strong, independent, would've left him she'd already be gone
Within a second, not a question all his shit would be thrown
From the second story building burn the rest of his clothes but
Psychology They both beat each other down
And the drinking ain't helping none of em out
They both faded drunk running they mouth and ready to shout soon as the other come in the house
She poppin pills for depression. Take a little extra to try to teach him a lesson
But she might've took it. One step too far and he came home to find her on the bathroom floor she isn't breathing
And I'm tired of the pain sick of lying to her face baby I just wanna breathe
And we fighting everyday make it hard to wanna stay maybe time that I ought to leave
And I'm tired of the pain sick of lying to her face baby I just wanna breathe
And we fighting everyday make it hard to wanna stay maybe time I leave