BVNE - The Depth of Decades Lyrics

You're holding my focus
And I don't want to cry now
I'm lost but devoted, I'm constantly choking
I stare in your eyes now
And I don't want to live this way, I feel so fake
And I don't want to end this way just help me wake

I'm not much better than I used to be
Still hate myself for that emotional truancy
So who are we in the scheme of what we really want?
I thought I had it but it seems that I am clearly wrong
I got lost in your iris, impossibly I wish these thoughts to reach my lips
But a lot of hurt would come from what I'd say
I don't wanna cause the pain but I just want to stay
My escape from monotony, plagued by hypocrisy letting the blade do its talk to me
But it's hard to be caught in a parted sea not knowing where I should stop to speak honestly
And I don't think you really feel this way
I hope I'm wrong, cause my heart has beat a different way
For every motive that we've fathomed, I can see the day
Where everything will fall in place and I can dream away

You're holding my focus
And I don't want to cry now
I'm lost but devoted, I'm constantly choking
I stare in your eyes now
And I don't want to live this way, I feel so fake
And I don't want to end this way just help me wake

And I don't take your heart for granted, let me know
Just where you stand and where we go
Am I just lost or is there hope?
I don't want to be here
I just want to let go
Tell me will you be here
If everything I kept close
And never let a secondary soul in my life take it away cause I'm so stuck
It's been a minute since I've seen you and I know what
The depth of decades can do to a soul crushed
And so what? We grow up, we glow up, we go nuts, and lose touch with focus
We go feel so hopeless, feel way less devoted and think that we know love

You're holding my focus
And I don't want to cry now
I'm lost but devoted, I'm constantly choking
I stare in your eyes now
And I don't want to live this way, I feel so fake
And I don't want to end this way just help me wake