Wisconsin Album Lyrics by Carlie Hanson

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Hopelessness

Who are you? I don't understand
I was seventeen with the world in my hands
God, I really hate this, and all you have to say
You think you know me, but I'm not the same
I don't have to fight it, not on every day
And win or lose to hopelessness, but in a different way
I don't mean to fail you, but I'd leave it all behind
The brass is loud and breaking, but I'll sing it one more time

So let me down slowly
So let me down slowly

I don't wanna stay up, I'm a letdown
Screaming in the back seat, wishing I was home now
I don't wanna give up, that's a cop-out
Living off the bad heat sticking to my clothes now
It's like every other week, what a long year
When I look around, it's like everything's my worst fear
I don't wanna stay up, I'm a letdown
Screaming in the back seat, wishing I was home now

So let me down slowly (screaming in the back seat, wishing I was home now)
So let me down slowly (screaming in the back seat, wishing I was home now)
So let me down slowly
So let me down slowly

Yeah (ooh, ooh, ooh)
It's like every other week (ooh, ooh, ooh)

It's like every other week, what a long year (ooh, ooh, ooh)
When I look around, it's like everything's my worst fear
It's like every other week, what a long year (ooh, ooh, ooh)
When I look around, it's like everything's my worst fear
It's like every other week, what a long year
When I look around, it's like everything's my worst fear
Everything's my worst fear

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608

Green eyes match the hillside
Snow falls when your tears dry, oh-oh, oh, oh-oh, oh
Summertime ain't a long time
I'ma meet you on the northside, whoa-oh, oh

Trip, I fall over the sun just to touch the stars
Passenger seat of my boyfriend's car
Windshield too cracked, I can't see

Look at where I am, I miss that place
Looking for a home I can't replace
Even though I got a little more cake, I can't change
Promise to my mom I'm still the same
Never change my number, 608
Running from the problems I can't face
Scared of change

Trip, I fall over the sun just to touch the stars
Passenger seat of my boyfriend's car
Windshield too cracked, I can't see (see)

Communication is fading with my patience
A tear falls when I think of home, I'm alone

Trip, I fall over the sun just to touch the stars
Passenger seat of my boyfriend's car
Windshield too cracked, I can't see (see)

Trip, I fall (miss that place, looking for a home I can't replace)
Over the sun just to touch the stars (even though I got a little more cake)
Passenger seat of my boyfriend's car (I can't change)
(Promise to my mom I'm still the same)
(Never change my number, 608) windshield too cracked, I can't see
Running from the problems I can't face (see)

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LSE to LAX

I'm sorry I was wrong
I'm sorry I'm the same as I always
Was when I was young
Excuses that I use when I hurt you
Fill my head with noise
Drown out all the things that I'm thinking
I made you paranoid
I made you paranoid

Only reason I hurt you is just 'cause I miss you
We both have our problems, well shit, we got issues
Only way I feel better is when I am with you
The distance is heavy, but I can still feel you

(I can still feel you)
(I can still feel you)

Another day I can't be honest, I got bad lies
Can't bring my walls down, built a fortress, that's a sad life
I promise everything then take it back the same night
The same night
But when you creep in my head, rather touch you instead
Left a smell in my bed like a ghost and I know
I just feel like a mess, got this weight on my chest
Way too heavy to catch you, I know, and I know that

I'm sorry I was wrong (I'm sorry I was wrong, yeah)
I'm sorry I'm the same as I always (same as)
Was when I was young (I was young)
Excuses that I use when I hurt you
Fill my head with noise (fill my head with noise)
Drown out all the things that I'm thinking
I made you paranoid
I made you paranoid

Only reason I hurt you is just 'cause I miss you
We both have our problems, well shit, we got issues
Only way I feel better is when I am with you
The distance is heavy, but I can still feel you

Only reason I hurt you is just 'cause I miss you
Oh, oh, oh, I can't pretend that I'm alright
I can't pretend that I'm alright

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Torn

Since I left I needed medicine
Just can't shake it off
Waking up I'm on the fence again
Don't know what I lost
So I'm not in any photographs
Took that like a punch
Talking to myself right off the ledge
Guess that's what I want

Could say I messed up
Could say I dodged a bullet
A different lifestyle, I don't know what to call it
I don't know what to call it

I hate it when I'm here
I love it when I'm leaving
I miss you when you're gone
I'm floating in between
Will I ever put my feet on the ground?
Just be happy with the way it is now?
I hate it when I'm here
I love it when I'm leaving
The more I feel alone
The more I miss the deep end
Will I ever drop my bags on the ground?
Just be happy with the way it is now? (Now)

Fighting through my tongue like fingernails
I know I should stop
Sorry that I had to bail again
That's not what I want
On a plane these thoughts are turning
Always on then off
Somewhere in between I'm torn again
No one knows I'm gone

Could say I messed up
Could say I dodged a bullet
A different lifestyle, I don't know what to call it
I don't know what to call it

I hate it when I'm here
I love it when I'm leaving
I miss you when you're gone
I'm floating in between
Will I ever put my feet on the ground?
Just be happy with the way it is now?
I hate it when I'm here
I love it when I'm leaving
The more I feel alone
The more I miss the deep end
Will I ever drop my bags on the ground?
Just be happy with the way it is now? (Way it is now)

(Way it is now) mm, mm, mm, mm
(Way it is) mm, mm, mm, mm
(Way it is) mm, mm, mm, mm
(Way it is) mm, mm, mm, mm
(Way it is) mm, mm, mm, mm
(Way it is) mm, mm, mm, mm

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Pretender

Pretender, what you are
Mirror in the fog
Watch it wearing off
Talk, all you do is talk
Everything's a front
It's funny 'til it's not

Do do do
Do do do
Do do do

Pretender, what you are
Do you see yourself at all?
Is your heart so out of touch?
You always swear you're gone
Sayin' that you've had enough
But your feet are stuck
Why you always in the mud?
What the f*ck is your problem?

Yeah yeah yeah
Yeah yeah yeah
Yeah yeah yeah
Yeah yeah yeah

I microdose my constant need
To give myself false hope
The fake I've come to know, I need
My tears turn into gold
And I'm pretending that it's worth it all
I'm the pretender (I'm the pretender)

Yeah yeah yeah (pretender)
Yeah yeah yeah (pretender)
Yeah yeah yeah (pretender)
Yeah yeah yeah

Pretender, what you are
Do you see yourself at all?
Is your heart so out of touch? (yeah yeah yeah)
You always swear you're gone
Sayin' that you've had enough
But your feet are stuck
Why you always in the mud?
What the f*ck is your problem?

Pretender what you are
Mirror in the fog
Watch it wearing off

Do do do
Do do do
Do do do

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Illusion

You always said that I lucked out
But I just feel more lost now
It's all a scene, like magazines
It all just pulls me under

And my expectations
Like poison, I know that
Stuck in this cycle
I'm fine though, I'm fine

This isn't what I thought it'd be like
Just an illusion doesn't sit right
At every corner, there's a red light
Perfect moments seem to slip by
And when I wake up
Tastes so sweet, like it was made up
This isn't what I thought it'd be like
Just an illusion what it feels like, it feels like

Window tinted the glass
I don't know where I'm at
Letting go of the wheel like a basket case
I don't know how to feel
I don't know what I meant
No, it's not really real when I'm lost in

My expectations
Like poison, I know that (I know that)
Stuck in this cycle
I'm fine though, I'm fine

This isn't what I thought it'd be like (be like)
Just an illusion doesn't sit right
At every corner, there's a red light
Perfect moments seem to slip by
And when I wake up
Tastes so sweet, like it was made up
This isn't what I thought it'd be like
Just an illusion what it feels like, it feels like

You know I always
Build it up just to be let down
Staring at another blank wall
I don't know what to believe now

This isn't what I thought it'd be like
Just an illusion doesn't sit right (sit right)
At every corner, there's a red light
Perfect moments seem to slip by
And when I wake up
Tastes so sweet, like it was made up
This isn't what I thought it'd be like
Just an illusion what it feels like, it feels like

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College Boy

How you been? It's been like a year now
Heard that song I just had to reach out
What's your name? Said you were applying to be a pilot
If it's true I hope you find peace when you're not flying

College boy
You search your life (search your life, life)

You don't have to listen to your friends, I don't trust them
Since I left, you don't take my opinion, I guess I get it
No one's there to make you feel special, you're so special
I wish you would put down the mirror, look at yourself first

Who are you? (Who are you? Who are you?)
I miss you, boy

I hope you never come back to your hometown
If you know what's good for your, good for your heart now
It's a bittersweet pill, better bite down
If you know what's good for you, good for you, leave now
I hope you never come back to your hometown
If you know what's good for your, good for your heart now
It's a bittersweet pill, better bite down
If you know what's good for you, good for you, leave now

How you been? It's been a few years now

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Window

Catch myself standing on the balcony
I look over you, know that you get mad at me
I always gotta fall right back in
I always gotta fall right back in you

I'm stuck in the dead of your eyes
Say that I'm alone, but I know that I'm not
I sat you down and I set you on fire
Every time I'm out late, every time I'm around you
I love you
I love you
I love you

I don't know if
I'm alright with feeling like water when you treat me like iron
Where I'm going is alright
I'm running right back, I realize I'll never get it
No, no, I don't wanna say it louder
No, no, I don't wanna say it louder
No, no, I don't wanna say it louder
No, no, I don't wanna sing it out

I'm stuck in the dead of your eyes
Say that I'm alone, but I know that I'm not
I sat you down and I set you on fire
Every time I'm out late, every time I'm around you
I love you
I love you
I love you

We don't have to talk about it (I'm running from)
We don't have to talk about it (I'm running from)
We don't have to talk about it (I'm running from)
We don't have to talk about it (I'm running from)

I'm stuck in the dead of your eyes
Say that I'm alone, but I know that I'm not
I sat you down and I set you on fire
Every time I'm out late, every time I'm around you
I love you
Oh, I love you
I love you

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Blueberry Pancakes

(Blueberry, blueberry)
(Blue-blue-blueberry, blueberry, blue)
(Blueberry, blueberry)
(Blue-blue-blueberry, blueberry, blue)

You're sweet like blueberry pancakes
Street lights, traffic in highways
Sleep tight, knowin' you're right here
Knowin' you're here
You're sweet like blueberry pancakes
Street lights, traffic in highways
Sleep tight knowin' you're right here
By just knowin' you're here

Same bed, new life, high rent
No job, just me, no friends
Three words, I say you next
Four walls, two heads, one pet

I know that there's nothin' you can't take
I'm selfish, that's my nature
An unfair expectation to hold me while fallin'

You're sweet like blueberry pancakes
Street lights, traffic in highways
Sleep tight, knowin' you're right here
Knowin' you're here
You're sweet like blueberry pancakes
Street lights, traffic in highways
Sleep tight knowin' you're right here
By just knowin' you're here

(Blueberry, blueberry)
(Blue-blue-blueberry, blueberry, blue)
(Blueberry, blueberry)
(Blue-blue-blueberry, blueberry, blue)
(Blueberry, blueberry)
(Blue-blue-blueberry, blueberry)
(Blue-blue-blueberry, blueberry)
(Blue-blue-blueberry, blueberry)

I know that there's nothin' you can't take
I'm selfish, that's my nature
An unfair expectation to hold me while fallin'

You're sweet like blueberry pancakes
Street lights, traffic in highways
Sleep tight, knowin' you're right here
Knowin' you're here
You're sweet like blueberry pancakes
Street lights, traffic in highways
Sleep tight knowin' you're right here
By just knowin' you're here

(Blueberry, blueberry)
(Blue-blue-blueberry, blueberry, blue)
(Blueberry, blueberry)
(Blue-blue-blueberry, blueberry, blue)
(Blueberry, blueberry)
(Blue-blue-blueberry, blueberry)
(Blue-blue-blueberry, blueberry)
(Blue-blue-blueberry, blueberry, blue)
(Blueberry, blueberry)
(Blue-blue-blueberry, blueberry, blue)
(Blueberry, blueberry)
(Blue-blue-blueberry, blueberry, blue)

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Days Like This

I don't know how it ends now I'm older
But I hope it makes sense when it's over
No I never thought I'd live, make it out like that
You were everything I had once
Said I'd leave it all behind and I'd never look back
You were everything I had once

It was days like this where I felt most alone
Where my head got sick from the light on my phone
Tryna tell myself that it wasn't my fault
And it wasn't my fault
Tryna run so far that you hide from yourself
Let your brain play tricks 'til you figure it out
It was days like this, I'd be down for a while
Ain't been down for a while

Yeah, I used to look up and I hate it
But the rain, I look up and I miss it
Hope my family knows I never meant to leave them
Think about it every time I write my feelings
Tell myself that everything is for a reason
Is it really though or is it how I see it?

It was days like this where I felt most alone
Where my head got sick from the light on my phone
Tryna tell myself that it wasn't my fault (it's not your fault)
And it wasn't my fault
Tryna run so far that you hide from yourself
Let your brain play tricks 'til you figure it out
It was days like this, I'd be down for a while (f*ck em)
Ain't been down for a while

Oh-whoa, whoa, whoa
Oh-whoa, whoa
Oh-whoa, whoa, whoa
Oh-whoa, whoa
Oh-whoa, whoa, whoa
Oh-whoa, whoa

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Fish Out of Water

She filled her car with gasoline
Built up the hope it took to leave
And put it all inside the boxes
That Mitsubishi, summer breeze
Her father sits passenger seat
They've never been out of Wisconsin
So if I hurt you, if I hurt you

Park parallel on London street
Breathe in the air we shouldn't breathe
She looks alive, fish out of water
Her hair is red and mine is blue
I laugh at us, she says it's cool
I give the key and then she locks it
So if I hurt you (if I hurt you)
If I hurt you (if I jurt you)

It took some time to understand
This city isn't one you can
But here we are in this apartment
I watch her faces, how they change
I'm so afraid she just might break
A cigarette is all she wanted

Park parallel on London street
Breathe in the air we shouldn't breathe
She looks alive, fish out of water
Her hair is red and mine is blue
I laugh at us, she says it's cool
I give the key and then she locks it
So if I hurt you (if I hurt you)
If I hurt you (if I hurt you)

It took some time to understand
This city isn't one you can
But here we are in this apartment
I watch her faces, how they change
I'm so afraid she just might break
A cigarette is all she wanted

I lay on the couch full of fear
I'm afraid one day you might leave me here
I lay on the couch full of fear
I'm afraid one day you might leave me here
I lay on the couch full of fear
I'm afraid one day you might leave me here
I lay on the couch full of fear
I'm afraid one day you might leave me here

If I hurt you (if I hurt you)
If I hurt you (if I hurt you)
(I lay on the couch full of fear, I'm afraid one day you might leave me here)
If I hurt you
(I lay on the couch full of fear 'cause I'm afraid one day you might leave me here)
If I hurt you
(I lay on the couch full of fear 'cause I'm afraid one day you might leave me here)
(I lay on the couch full of fear, I'm afraid one day you might leave me here)

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Wisconsin

I could go anywhere and you'll be right here
I could say anything and you'd wanna hear
After all, this the place where I face my fears
I could go anywhere and you'll be right here
I could say anything and you'd wanna hear
After all, this the place where I face my fears

I couldn't let go
Fill my head with echoes
Music in my headphones
High school was a mess though
I'm talking rejects, school bus in my pockets
Sick of all the nonsense
Way too hard to process

I could go anywhere and you'll be right here
I could say anything and you'd wanna hear
After all this the place where I face my fears (face my fears)
I could go anywhere and you'll be right here
I could say anything and you'd wanna hear
After all, this the place where I face my fears

(Face my fears)

I can't escape, I don't know how
Ice in my veins keeps me cold now
I can't replace how I feel about
Leaving Wisconsin

I could go anywhere and you'll be right here
I could say anything and you'd wanna hear
After all this the place where I face my fears
I could go anywhere and you'll be right here
I could say anything and you'd wanna hear
After all, this the place where I face my fears