Charli XCX - how i'm feeling now Album Lyrics

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pink diamond

Yeah
Yeah, hahaha

I just wanna go real hard, I just wanna go real hard
Pink diamond in the dark, I just wanna go real hard
I just wanna go real hard
I just wanna go real hard, I just wanna go real hard
Pink diamond in the dark, I just wanna go real hard
I just wanna go real hard

I just wanna go real hard
Lip gloss on and I'm lookin' like a star
Got a tiny bag but I got a big heart
On the video chat, keep starin' at my bra
I'm feeling so fine, kinda feelin' like a snack
Gonna give you good views, watch me with the art
I'm really so rare, I'm sent from above
Wish you could come 'round, pick me up in your car, yeah

I just wanna go real hard, I just wanna go real hard
Pink diamond in the dark, I just wanna go real hard
I just wanna go real hard (Real hard)
I just wanna go real hard, I just wanna go real hard
Pink diamond in the dark, I just wanna go real hard
I just wanna go real hard

I just wanna go real hard for days (For days)
I just wanna feel in different ways (Ways)
Every single night kinda feels the same
I'm a pink diamond, I need space
I'm online and I'm feeling so glamorous (Uh)
Watch me shine for the boys and the cameras (Hey)
In real life, could the club even handle us? (Uh)
In real life, could the club even handle us?

I just wanna go real hard, I just wanna go real hard
Pink diamond in the dark, I just wanna go real hard
I just wanna go real hard (Real hard)
I just wanna go real hard, I just wanna go real hard
Pink diamond in the dark, I just wanna go real hard
I just wanna go real hard, yeah

Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
Yeah, yeah (Real-real hard, I just wanna go real-), yeah, yeah
Yeah, yeah (Real-real hard), yeah, yeah
Yeah

I just wanna go real hard, I just wanna go real hard
Pink diamond in the dark, I just wanna go real hard
I just wanna go real hard
I just wanna go real hard, I just wanna go real hard
Pink diamond in the dark, I just wanna go real hard
I just wanna go real hard, yeah

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forever

Love suicide
You and I drove for miles
Knew I'd be here, be here, be here with you
Knew I'd be here, be here, be here with you
We took a dive in the blue, scared to lose
All my feelings, feelings, feelings for you
Knew I'd be here, be here, be here with you

Yeah, now we gotta let this go
Drove the car off the road
I gotta give you time to grow
You're not a ghost, you're in my head
I didn't wanna leave you low
Drove the car off the road
I hope you get some time to grow
You're not a ghost, you're in my head (In my head...)

I will always love you (Love you)
I'll love you forever
Even when we're not together
I will always love you (Love you)
I'll love you forever
Said, "I'll love you forever"
I know in the future (Future)
We won't see each other (We won't see each other)
Cold just like December
But I will always love you (Love you)
I'll love you forever
Yeah, I'll love you forever

In my head, in my head

You take your time, I'll take mine, we'll be fine
Knew I'd be here, be here, be here with you
When the roof caved in and the water fell through
Hope when we're old, we'll be friends, reminisce
Hope we'll be there, be there, be there, us two
All the memories, all the photos we took

Yeah, now we gotta let this go
Drove the car off the road
I gotta give you time to grow
You're not a ghost, you're in my head
I didn't wanna leave you low
Drove the car off the road
I hope you get some time to grow
You're not a ghost, you're in my head

I will always love you (Love you)
I'll love you forever
Even when we're not together
I will always love you (Love you)
I'll love you forever
Said, "I'll love you forever"
I know in the future (Future)
We won't see each other (We won't see each other)
Cold just like December
But I will always love you (Love you)
I'll love you forever
Yeah, I'll love you forever
I will always love you (Love you)
I'll love you forever (Ever)
Even when we're not together
I will always love you (Love you)
I'll love you forever
Said, "I'll love you forever" (I know-I know)
I know in the future (Love you)
We won't see each other
Cold just like December
But I will always love you (Love you)
I'll love you forever
Yeah, I'll love you forever

I know-I know (Love you)
Oh, I love, oh-oh-oh-oh
I know, love you
I'll love you forever
I know-I know (Love you)
Oh, I love, oh-oh-oh-oh
I know, love you
(I know-I know)
Future, we won't see each other
I know-I know (Love you)
Love you
I know-I know (Love you)
Love you
I know-I know (Love you)
Love you

Front of my mind, in the front of my mind
You stay right in front, in the front of my mind
Front of my mind, in the front of my mind
You stay right in front, in the front of my mind
Front of my mind, never leave you behind
We say promises and we give up the lies
Front of my mind, in the front of my mind
You stay right in front of my mind

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claws

Like your mind
Like your smile
Like your eyes
I could die
Aeroplane, you answer by
Singing songs by Jeremih

Party time
Hop inside
We're so high
Rollercoaster ride
Diamond bright
Kiss me right, yeah
That's so nice

I like, I like, I like, I like, I like everything about you
I like, I like, I like, I like, I like everything about you
I like, I like, I like, I like, I like everything about you
I like, I like, I like, I like, I like everything about you

So, don't you want me back?
'Cause I know when I know I don't wanna be alone
Don't you want me back?
'Cause I know when I know I wanna go

I'm not shy
Make you sigh
Slip 'N Slide
Up my thighs
Juicy just like clementines
Sorry if I make you cry

Party time
Hop inside
We're so high
Rollercoaster ride
Gemini
Switching sides, yeah
That's so nice

I like, I like, I like, I like, I like everything about you
I like, I like, I like, I like, I like everything about you
I like, I like, I like, I like, I like everything about you
I like, I like, I like, I like, I like everything about you

So, don't you want me back?
'Cause I know when I know I don't wanna be alone
Don't you want me back?
'Cause I know when I know I wanna go

I, I, I, I, I, I think about you
I, I, I, I, I, everything about you
(Everything about you)
(Every) Yeah
(Everything about you)
(Everything about you)
(Everything about you, every)
(Everything about you)
(Everything)

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7 years

So hard, the things that we've been through (Yeah)
Could've fallen but we've only grew (Uh, yeah)
So I make my house a home with you (Oh)
Right here and it feels brand new (Brand new)
I used to live inside the lie with you (With you)
And now I'm honest and it feels so good (Ah, ah)

Hello, hello, hello, I see clearly
So long, been scared to show off my feelings
Hello, hello, hello, got new meanin'
Now I really see it

I know that look inside my eyes means always
Even if we fall apart, split two ways
Used to be afraid to say it, now it's so strange
Seven years and it's been you and I, always
Really complicated, we're too deep, babe (deep, babe)
Really safe, the way your arms just feel safe (Feel safe)
Used to be afraid to say it, now that's strange
Seven years and it's been you and I, always

Uh, uh
Oh, oh, oh, oh
Oh, oh, oh, oh
Oh-oh-oh
No, oh-oh-oh

Oh yeah I really, really love you for life (For life)
Without the Holy matrimony, I'm wife (I'm wife)
We went from distant to inseparable types (That's right)
Oh yeah, it's really, really, really, really, really nice (It's really nice)
And now I'll never ever ever think twice (Not twice)
'Cause you're exactly really, really my type (My type)
I think we took some sleeping pills on that flight (That flight)
The seven years, it really, really flown by (Swoosh)

I know that look inside my eyes means always (Always)
Even if we fall apart, split two ways (Two ways)
Used to be afraid to say it, now it's so strange
Seven years and it's been you and I, always (Always)
Really complicated, we're too deep, babe (deep, babe)
Really safe, the way your arms just feel safe (Feel safe)
Used to be afraid to say it, now that's strange
Seven years and it's been you and I, always

Uh, uh
Oh, oh, oh, oh
Oh, oh, oh, oh
Oh-oh-oh
No, oh-oh-oh

Always
Always (You)
(Real strange)
Oh
I know that look inside my eyes means always (Always)
Even if we fall apart, split two ways (Two- two ways)
Yeah, it's so strange, always, oh, oh, oh
I know that look inside my eyes means deep, babe
Really safe, the way your song just feels (so)
Oh, oh, ooh
No way, ooh, ooh
Oh
Real strange
Always
Real strange
No, oh, oh
Always
Real strange

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detonate

Close myself off in new ways
Building walls, he might say I can't turn back
I've been reelin' for twelve days (Twelve)
When I start to see if it gets real bad

Hurt me, know you won't hurt me
I'm about to detonate
Pull you close and then I'll be gone
Sorry, never say sorry
All my silence resonates
Think you let me know but you're wrong
Dirty, I can talk dirty
I can make you feel so sick
Switch your faith and leave you so low
Hurt me, know you never hurt me
I'm about to detonate
Pull you close and then I'll be gone

I don't trust myself at all
Why should you trust me?
I don't trust myself alone
Why should you love me?

I'm not tryna be rude
I'm just feelin' confused
My emotions get blue
Had to push 'em all through
I know you hope that I'll prove
Everything, we'll stay cool
But I can't promise that's true
'Cause my emotions so blue

Hurt me, know you won't hurt me
I'm about to detonate
Pull you close and then I'll be gone
Sorry, never say sorry
All my silence resonates
Think you let me know but you're wrong
Dirty, I can talk dirty
I can make you feel so sick
Switch your faith and leave you so low
Hurt me, know you never hurt me
I'm about to detonate
Pull you close and then I'll be gone

I don't trust myself at all
Why should you trust me?
I don't trust myself alone
Why should you love me?

Do-do-do-do you love me?
So do you love me?
Do-do-do-do you love me?
Why should you love me?
Do-do-do-do you love me?
So do you love me?
Do-do-do-do you love me?
Why should you love me?
Do-do-do-do you love me?
So do you love me?
Do-do-do-do you love me?
Why should you love me?
Do-do-do-do you love me?
So do you love me?
Do-do-do-do you love me?
Why should you love me?
Do you love

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enemy

They say, "Keep your friends close"
But you're closer, I love when you're here
I'm so far away sometimes, I'm distant, yeah
You might help me, intimacy
I'll admit, I'm scared
Maybe, maybe you can reach me, yeah

Maybe you're my enemy
Now I've finally let you come a little close to me, oh
Maybe you're my enemy
You're the only one who knows the way I'm really feelin'
Now it's really clear to me
You could throw it all down, and you could call me deeper
Maybe you're my enemy
Baby, you're my enemy, yeah

Suddenly, you're in my bedroom under my sheets every night
Suddenly, I lose my fear, it feels good, yeah
I feel guilty, I feel nervous, I feel certain now
Maybe, maybe you can reach me, yeah

Maybe you're my enemy
Now I've finally let you come a little close to me, oh
Maybe you're my enemy
You're the only one who knows the way I'm really feelin'
Now it's really clear to me
You could throw it all down, and you could call me deeper
Maybe you're my enemy
Baby, you're my enemy, yeah

Oh, yeah
Yeah, oh
Maybe you're my enemy
Baby, you're my enemy

So cold at the surface, I'm scared of nothin'
Underneath, I'm nervous
Can you reach me?
So cold at the surface, told you I'm scared of nothin'
Underneath, I'm nervous, yeah
Can you reach me?

I think a tough journey to be on whilst you're around a lot of people
I feel like I'm learning, but I doubt myself
And I don't really understand it yet
It hurts here, it hurts here

Maybe you're my enemy
Now I've finally let you come a little close to me, oh
Maybe you're my enemy
You're the only one who knows the way I'm really feelin'
Now it's really clear to me
You could throw it all down, and you could call me deeper
Maybe you're my enemy
Baby, you're my enemy, yeah

[?]
Maybe you're my enemy
Can you reach me?
Baby, you're my enemy, yeah
Can you reach me?
Baby, you're my enemy, yeah
Can you reach me?

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i finally understand

Oh
Oh, oh, oh
Oh
Baby, lately
Baby, yeah

The walls are all gone, did we melt them down? (Baby)
Liquid in my hands, liquid in my mouth (Oh)
Footage on my phone, did it with your tongue (Oh)
And now we're sticking close, and I understand

Baby, I love you bad (Oh)
'Cause lately I finally understand (Oh)
That maybe this feeling that I've found
Might kill me, put me in the ground (Oh)

I finally understand, finally understand
My therapist said I hate myself really bad
You tell me it's fine, let me cry and hug it out

Baby, I love you bad (Oh)
'Cause lately I finally understand (Oh)
That maybe this feeling that I've found
Might kill me, put me in the ground (Oh)

Uh, baby, yeah, ba-baby, yeah
Uh, baby, yeah, ba-baby, yeah
'Cause lately, put me in the ground
Baby, yeah, ba-baby, yeah

Liquid in my hands, liquid in my mouth
Got me drippin' out, got me drippin' out
Many nights gone, finally understand
I finally understand, I finally understand
Feel it in my core and the feeling's raw
You love me even when I hate myself, I'm sure

Baby, I love you bad
'Cause lately I finally understand
That maybe this feeling that I've found
Might kill me, put me in the ground
Baby, I love you bad
'Cause lately I finally understand
That maybe this feeling that I've found
Might kill me, put me in the ground

Baby

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c20

Yeah

I'm next level, so legit with all my
Click, click, click yeah
I'm next level, so legit with all my
Click, click, yeah, yeah, yeah
I'm next level, so legit with all my
Click, click, click yeah
I'm next level, so legit with all my
Click, click, yeah, yeah
I'm next level, so legit with
I'm next level, so legit with all my
I'm next level, so legit with
I'm next level, so legit with all my
Yeah
I'm next level, so legit with all my
Click, click, click, yeah
I'm next level, so legit with all my
Click, click, yeah, yeah
I'm next level, so legit with
I'm next level, so legit with all my
I'm next level, so legit with
I'm next level, so legit with all my

Click, click, click
Click, click, click
Click, click, click
Click, click, click
Click, click, click
Click, click, click
Click, click, click
Click, click, click...
Charli

White sheets, you and me used to lay close
Blue summer sittin' high in the window
Phone calls every night had a new glow
My click running through my mind like a rainbow
We were so in love, so we let go
Took it in our lungs, then we all choked
Long drives, so divine when the sun showed
My click running through my mind like a rainbow

I miss them every night
I miss them by my side
Catch my tears when I cry
My clique on me for life
Driving 'round at dawn, look at you, lip bite
Something in my chest til' the tension breaks
Want to stand still, won't forget this time
I miss them, I miss them, I miss them

White sheets, you and me used to lay close
Blue summer sittin' high in the window
Phone calls every night had a new glow
My click running through my mind like a rainbow
We were so in love, so we let go
Took it in our lungs, then we all choked
Long drives, so divine when the sun showed
My click running through my mind like a rainbow
(Yeah)

I miss them
I miss them, I miss them, I miss them
I miss them
I miss them, I miss them, I miss them
I miss them every night
I miss them
I miss them, I miss them, I miss them
I miss them (I miss them, I miss them)
I miss them every night

I'm next level, so legit with all my
Click, click, click yeah (Yeah)
I'm next level, so legit with all my, yeah, yeah
I'm next level, so legit with all my
Click, click, click yeah
I'm next level, so legit with all my
Charli

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party4u

I only threw this party for you
Only threw this party for you, for you, for you
I was hopin' you would come through
I was hopin' you would come through, it's true, it's true
Only threw this party for you
I only threw this party for you, for you, for you
I'm about to party on you
Watch me, watch me party on you, yeah

1000 pink balloons
DJ with your favorite tunes
Birthday cake in August
But you were born 19th of June
Champagne pourin' in your mouth
Called your friends from out of town
Got the party bag with the purple pills
And I'm waiting for you by the window, yeah
Called your digits, but the phone kept ringin'
Wish I knew what you were thinking
Na-na, na, 1000 pink balloons
Dancin' on to your favorite tunes
Hope you walk in the party
'Cause I threw the party just for you like what

I only threw this party for you
Only threw this party for you, for you, for you
I was hopin' you would come through
I was hopin' you would come through, it's true, it's true
I only threw this party for you
I only threw this party for you, for you, for you
I'm about to party on you
Watch me, watch me party on you, yeah

You could watch me pull up on your body
Like it's summer, take my clothes off
In the water splash around and get you blessed like holy water
I don't know what you were waiting for
You know that I've been waiting for you
(I only threw this party for you)
If you saw my tears, would you touch me?
Kiss me on the mouth, say you love me?
Leave a message, tell me you're sorry?
Hit me right back, hit me right back
Why you treating me like someone that you never loved

I only threw this party for you
Only threw this party for you, for you, for you
I was hopin' you would come through
I was hopin' you would come through, it's true, it's true
Only threw this party for you
I only threw this party for you, for you, for you
I'm about to party on you
Watch me, watch me party on you, yeah
I only threw this party for you
Only threw this party for you, for you, for you
I was hopin' you would come through
I was hopin' you would come through, it's true, it's true
Only threw this party for you
I only threw this party for you, for you, for you
I'm about to party on you
Watch me, watch me party on you, yeah

Party on you, party on you
Party on-party on you, party on you
Party on-party on you, party on you
Party on-party on you, party on you
Party on-party on you, party on you
Party on-party on you, party on you
Party on-party on you, party on you
Party on-party on you, party on you
Party on-party on you, party on you
Party on-party on you, party on you
Party on-party on you, party on you
Party on-party on you, party on you
Come to my party (Party on-party on you, party on you)
(Party on-party on you, party on you)
Come to my party (Party on-party on you, party on you)
(Party on-party on you, party on you)
All I'm thinking, all I know is (Party on-party on you, party on you)
That I hope you knock on my door (Party on-party on you, party on you)
Nervous energy (Party on-party on you, party on you)
My heart rate rises higher, higher up (Party on-party on you, party on you)
I wish you'd get here, kiss my face (Party on-party on you, party on you)
Instead you're somewhere far away (Party on-party on you, party on you)
I love this energy, will stay (Party on-party on you, party on you)
I hope you realize one day, uh (Party on-party on you, party on you)

Come to my party (Party on-party on you, party on you)
(Party on-party on you, party on you)
Come to my party (Party on-party on you, party on you)
(Party on-party on you, party on you)
Oh-oh, ohh-oh, oh, mhh, ah
(Party on-party on you, party on you)
(Party on-party on you, party on you)
(Party on-party on you, party on you)

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anthems

Hello

I'm so bored, what
Wake up late and eat some cereal
Try my best to be physical
Lose myself in a TV show
Staring out to oblivion
All my friends are invisible
Twenty four-seven, miss 'em all
I might cry like a waterfall
I feel afraid when I feel alone, yeah, uh
Have sex, me and my Romeo
He says I'm irresistible
I'm gassed up like I'm Texaco
I ride, ride, ride, ride, ride, ride, ride, ride, ride, ride it
Sometimes I feel okay, some days I'm so frightened

I want anthems
Late nights, my friends, New York
I sleep, wanna wake up brand new
I sleep, wanna wake up with you (You)
I want anthems
Late nights, my friends, New York
Finally, when it's over
We might be, even closer, uh, uh

Uh, uh, uh, uh
These days exhausting
Uh, uh, uh, uh
Go online shopping
I'm so uninspired, I just wanna breathe
Flowers and the trees, dirt all on my knees
Got some hands to hold on to
Uh, I get existential and so strange
I hear no sounds when I'm shouting
I just wanna go to parties
Up high, wanna feel the heat from all the bodies

I want anthems
Late nights, my friends, New York
I sleep, wanna wake up brand new
I sleep, wanna wake up with you (You)
I want anthems
Late nights, my friends, New York
Finally, when it's over
We might be, even closer, uh, uh

With me, with me, with me, with me, with me
With me, with me, with me, with me, with me
With me, with me, with me, with me, with me
Yeah

I want anthems
Late nights, my friends, New York
I sleep, wanna wake up brand new
I sleep, wanna wake up with you (You)
I want anthems
Late nights, my friends, New York
Finally, when it's over
We might be, even closer, uh, uh

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visions

Visions in the past
Too real it's right from the start
Tearing up your heart
You and I we really went dark

Voices tell me hold on
Soon he'll kiss and pull me close, so close
Grippin' to you so hard
Soon he'll kiss and pull me close, so close but

I got pictures in my mind
I can see it so clearly, see it all so bright
I see you at night
I got pictures in my mind
I can see it so clearly, see it all the time
I see it
Visions comin' every night
You can call me so crazy following that light
I see you at night
I got pictures in my mind
I can see it so clearly, and it looks so right
I see you

Can't you try to feel
Never seen a future so real
But maybe I'm just fantasizing
Finally think I'm realizing

All these voices tell me hold on
Soon he'll kiss and pull me close, so close
Grippin' to you so hard
Soon he'll kiss and pull me close, so close but

I got pictures in my mind
I can see it so clearly, see it all so bright
I got pictures in my mind
I can see it so clearly, see it all the time
Visions comin' every night
You can call me so crazy following that light
I see you at night
I got pictures in my mind

I got pictures in my mind
I got pictures in my mind
I got pictures in my mind