C. Wager - Trauma Lyrics

This is how you end up
When you from the bottom
All alone
Dead broke
Heartbroken
1999 I stepped into the world yeah yeah
Right into the fire out the womb I was burned yeah yeah
My father left me I was young
Still to this day I feel pain I still feel unloved
I still feel unloved
Thought it'd heal with more drugs but it ain't it just grew
Still scared don't know why but I wish I knew
I wish I knew
Why my granny die why'd you take her from me
Still mad at God either way he gon' judge me
He gon' judge me
And I won't ever care
Smoke in the air I'm still scared
I chose myself I almost died a few times
Gun in my face barrel right between my eyes
Ever since that day I still hear the shots in my mind
I saw a murder two weeks later yeah you could say I'm traumatized
I'm traumatized yeah
Right after that they tried to give me 25
My momma cried yeah
Tears still fall
And I still tell her one day destiny will call
I don't need no one to answer nobodies gon' pick me up
I'm so tired of empty prayers
I just pray you lift me up now
Nah I don't know what's goin on all I know is keep going
It's like I'm drowning my pain's a deep ocean
They kicked me out of school ain't gon' lie I ain't forgot
In the end nobody cares yeah that's what it taught me
Lost everybody but I still got me
And I won't ever care
Smoke in the air I'm still scared
I chose myself I almost died a few times
Gun in my face barrel right between my eyes
Ever since that day I still hear the shots in my mind
I saw a murder two weeks later yeah you could say I'm traumatized
I'm traumatized yeah
You could say I'm traumatized
I'm traumatized yeah