Caleb W. - Diatribe Lyrics

I never thought I'd begin my day by digging my friend's grave
I prayed well over a thousand times to keep from seeing this day
I guess now I've run out of luck and precious time's slipping away
The task at hand is cold within; I'm broken, in disarray

I can't come to grips, I just can't see
How this could come to such an untimely demise

I feel within a pain I can't describe
Feeling so lost and afraid, how could I just say goodbye
I scream at Him a hateful diatribe
How could I erase the memory of watching my best friend die

The clock is now half past four
I stumble on the way to the door
I'm holding you tight, I won't let go
That much I always swore
Looking in your eyes, I'm sorry I lied
That much I deplore
The needle grows near, I shed a tear
Anxiety I can't ignore

I know I need to treasure the next ten minutes
But they're tainted by this sea of lies
Honey you're ok, please don't you cry
Just take my hand and leave this life

I feel within a pain I can't describe
Feeling so lost and afraid, how could I just say goodbye
I scream at Him a hateful diatribe
How could I erase the memory of watching my best friend die

Engrained in my mind are your last screams
What the hell is wrong, this can't be real
As silence falls over, your eyes go dark
A final farewell I bid you my friend

I feel within a pain I can't describe
Feeling so lost and afraid, how could I just say goodbye
I scream at Him a hateful diatribe
How could I erase the memory of watching my best friend die