Call Me Ace - Still Dark Tho Lyrics

Sometimes even I don't know what's in my mind
Nonetheless I try to follow these signs
Where's the exit?
Feel like I'm driving blind, I need a second
To go and rub my eyes tears and Visine run down my face
No longer hotboxing my pain 'til I'm stoned in the face
I gotta man up today, but ain't got nothin' to say
Well nothin' positive anyway
I bottled it up inside I might blow up in any day
This bloody red water is substituting for hennylade
High Grade thoughts is substituting for berry jane
Getting' pushed to the edge still growin' in every way
I'm tempted to break it all down
Break down they buildings before I really start breaking down
Cnd slur up my speech while I proceed to be breaking down
The reasons why we was wronged
I swear I ain't mean no harm
Yet still I'm the bad guy
Could never get nothin' right

I gave my life to Christ I thought I always would be the light
But my heart feel dark tho, my mind so dark tho
My lips still dark tho, my skin still dark tho
My heart feel dark tho, my mind so dark tho
I thought that things would change true not everything stayed the same
My heart feel dark tho, my skin still dark tho
My mind so dark tho, my lips still dark tho
My heart feel dark tho, my mind so dark tho

I'm seein' people live the life that I had lived when I was nineteen
I've been tryna unlearn the bad and build good hygiene
Ingrained habits deeper than the belief of a Pisces
Seen alotta things ain't really much that could surprise me
Seen the same people with my faith demoralize me
Coworkers call me bro behind my back tho they despise me
I'm close to backslidin' backhands please don't try me
Try me
Really just a soul that's tryna hold up its own man you notice
Internal moanings got me roaming man hard to stay focused
I'm losin' devotional desire who knows if I'm growin'
C broken up soul with golden guards up ain't tryna stay open
Don't get exposed watch the polos come charge in like Romans
Won't sell you a trojan but will screw you without no emotions
I ain't livin' for the moment ain't about no omens
I'm just tryna fortify our fortress get my thoughts assorted

I know i'm called to be the light
But my heart feel dark tho, my mind so dark tho
My lips still dark tho, my skin still dark tho
My heart feel dark tho, my mind so dark tho
I thought that things would change true not everything stayed the same
My heart feel dark tho, my skin still dark tho
My mind so dark tho, my lips still dark tho
My heart feel dark tho, my mind so dark tho