Cameron Nessel - Across From a Stranger Lyrics

Oh how it feels
To wait for an angel
When Heaven I've already seen
I sat at her gate
I laid in her manger
'Til Hell brought me down to my knees
Now I search alone
For a new kind of feeling
My heart starts to beat
One more time
I lay by myself
And talk to my ceiling
Please Angel just listen tonight
All of my skin
Is marked by your anger
But your lips heal my every wound
Now I sit at a booth
Across From a Stranger
And search for a fraction of you
And she's all so nice
And she's all so pretty
She trusts me with all
Of her words and her history
But I'm still recalling
The way that you kissed me
And every night
I still talk to my ceiling
But I want to love
And I want that chance
But I flinch every time
That she touches my hand
And I want to bite
Oh I want to scream
At whatever cruel force
Brings you back to my dreams
You hid me away
You said it's what you need to do
Well f*ck you for that
And f*ck him for believing you
And I want to tell him
I would if I could
But at the end of the day
It won't do me no good
See I've been
Dreamin' of somebody new
A gentle soul at a table for two
My problem is
She looks like you
And I've been
Searchin' for you in the night
In distant stars
In others' eyes
I can't seem to find your light
I DON'T THINK I'LL LET YOU GO NOW
I've been
Dreamin' of somebody new
A gentle soul at a table for two
My problem is
She looks like you
(Now my kids will have different eyes than I pictured)
And I've been
Takin' the time on my own
I've felt every high
I've felt every low
So why can I not let you go?
We don't speak much
But I'd say I'm proud
As much as I did once
I don't need you now
And I'll find someone
I deserve to be happy
And it's been a while
Since I've talked to my ceiling