Cap Kingg - Evaluate Lyrics

Dag, what a trip, sh*t is squared away
I'm try'na figure out how to tackle this beat today
It's really funny how ya last songs always gotta be your deepest
Like your deepest, darkest secrets, uh
All my cards are on the table. Stakes are high
I can't even lie, I'm not even sure if I'll survive
But what message would it send if I don't take a chance?
I'd rather drop and die then to be a coward of a man
All I ever wanted was to make an album
That would resonate across the globe with a bunch of different souls
Yeah, a n*gga gotta make a living either way
But I need to make sure that I'm heard, put the check on hold
All I ever wanted was to reminisce about my lil youngin' days. My life as a little boy
More structure then, sh*t is misconstrud now
Got me wondering what the f**k is the move now
See, I made this song for a reason. I'll explain it later
But for now lets focus on the sh*t that I ain't seeing
Like artist rapping like they got a purpose
Or like people coming without strings attached. I'm observing
Or like having homeboys that I can turn to
Or people staying outta sh*t that don't concern you and the list goes on but Imma cut it short
Because theres moves to make
Trying hard to find a Silver Lining when I bake
But it seems like all I can draw is the bad
Because I'm always thinking 'bout the things I want and what I never had
All of elementary, I was the retarded child and when them kids saw me
They would mean mug me hella wild
Either that, or they would laugh at me, it bought a frown
I never got why I'm the kid that no one wants to be around
Because I never did a thing that others didn't do
Like talking sh*t, or be a class clown try'na be cool
Forgive me, 'cuz I single myself out a lot
But when I got to middle school, they took it up another notch
Thats around the time where sh*t was getting physical
I'm getting singled out by teachers, was I winning? No
For situations that I got into with other kids
I would take the bigger fall, and they'll be good and free to go
When I would get into debates with other kids, no matter what I said
Nobody took my side, that was f**king cold
In High School, it was pretty much the same
The only difference was I had Self-Control and my Wisdom gained
Well, of course as time went on, I got curved a bunch
The only time that people talked to me is when they needed much
I'm always taken for a joke, that's a blatant one
I'm try'na take it easy, but the stress weighs a ton
But enough with the sob stories before I shout
Because its time to tell y'all what this f**king songs about
In the beginning, I gave everybody Motivation
And its coming from a Libra's Child because I know they waiting
I wrote it on a Full Tank because I've always been an Action Taker
You can call me Royalty because I slayed it
Got me writing After Hours, man its hella late
But its not a Scrimmage, turn the NightTime into day
I been Seduced by the money, but I still made it
And I talked about how every girl should be Appreciated
Later on, I said "Thank God" for all my blessings
But to add on to it, I even thanked him for the lessons
Later on, I started telling people "Don't Mope"
'Cuz being negative is something that I won't promote
Moving on, I started talking 'bout my Conquered Pain
These are all the things that I been through and how I overcame
And now that everything is on the table, clean and straight
Its y'all turn to chip in, its time to Evaluate

Finesse!