Carmichael. - Suddenly Lyrics

I told myself I would never be like this
In bed all day with nothing but cold sweats
I'm counting seconds but I can't Seem to pass the time
Another day where I'm chasing these tablets and all these
Doctors, man they seem like my best friends
No one to call cause I keep telling all these lies
Caught between the nightmare and the dream
First you're feeling good then this poison takes your life
A deal with the devil, he hands me a shovel to dig this hole and bury me alive

Suddenly I see my true colors
Suddenly I see my true colors Suddenly I see, Suddenly I see

A tortured past so another prescription, double the dose without the doctors permission
I'll end it all if you Just Give me some time
Left alone with all my vices time is money but I don't know the prices
I'd spend it all just for some peace of mind
Try to see that it's my reality that's killing my feelings to stay alive
And nothings right with these bottles with warning signs
So I'll kick this chair as this rope drains all my life

Suddenly I see my true colors
Suddenly I see my true colors suddenly I see
Suddenly I see suddenly I see
I told myself I would never be like you
Oh my god I'd never be like you
I told myself I would never be like you
Oh my god I'd never be like you
I told myself I would never be like you
Oh my God Id never be like you