Caroline Maas - Fictional Feelings Lyrics

I'm so in love with this boy, but I made him up in my head
I just don't expect that anyone will ever understand
I know just how to make him laugh and on my birthday he gives me a sentimental gift
Oh, how I wish he'd exist, he takes everything I give and he sends it right back
Oh, how I wish that he was real, cause my friends are so happy and I'm left with nothing but drowning
In all of my fictional feelings
He treats me how I treat my friends and he treats me so much better than that
I've never felt so special and sure that I could trust somebody more with my whole heart
He plays piano while I play my guitar and he never takes things way too far
When we go to my sheets he says his world is me, but then I wake up and it's all just a dream
Oh, how I wish he'd exist, he takes everything I give and he sends it right back
Oh, how I wish that he was real, cause my friends are so happy and I'm left with nothing but drowning
In all of my fictional feelings
Oh, but you don't exist, you're made up in my head
Oh, could you please exist, could you escape the confindes of my head and just exist
Oh, how I wish that he'd exist, he takes everything I give and he sends it right back
Oh, how I wish that he was real, cause my friends are so happy and I'm left with nothing but drowning
And all of my fictional, fictional feelings