Cedvr - Pain Lyrics

Woke up with my mind full of hopelessness
Pain in my soul, sometimes I wonder where my focus went
My friends don't really care about me, no one to be open with
I cry myself to sleep at night, my mom don't even notice it

I just wanna kill myself, but would that really help
Would that hurt my friends and would they think to blame themselves
They don't care about my feelings, I feel sorry for myself
Living life for other people doesn't benefit my health

I'm infatuated
Maybe death is like a dream, but you just can't escape it
Wanna believe that heaven's real and when I die that I will make it
Maybe I should get some sleep, before my thoughts just get to racing

Head's feeling heavy
I feel nauseous and impatient, and it's almost 3am, I think I need some medication
I can't fall to sleep, my eyes are burning, thoughts are racing, tears soaking up my sheet

Then I fall to sleep, to my amazement