Cell Corruption - Endless Search Lyrics

I been searching for so long but I just cant find it
Once it all was so easy but its just getting harder for every single day
It was a fools dream and I took the wheel once again
There is no hope only endless waste
But at times the clouds will part
Well this time is my time only mine
You can call me stupid all you like
I will go my own way I will chose my own destination
I change direction I go where ever I please
It was just a fools dream and I took the wheel once again
There is no hope only endless waste
Maybe if I crack my skull I will find my salvation but I'm just so tired
The coffee wont save me now and it haven't for some time
Well this time is my time only mine
You can call me stupid all you like
I will go my own way I will chose my own destination
I change direction I go where ever I please
My scattered brain will light up and I lose the target
In everything haste is my curse
All to many things will enter my mind and I cant focus
Sit down, shut up and f*cking end it
I am my own worst f*cking enemy
There's no one just as ruthless as me