Ceramic Hammer - Chorus of Lies Lyrics

A dry month and I'm back
Let's face it, I've cracked
A chorus of lies
Spy the eyes on my back

I'd give myself more shit
For falling off the wagon
If it had four f*ckin' wheels
Just can't catch the dragon

I can't catch the dragon
Glances repelled
By what their eyes smell
A lone gunman thinker
Who's sinking to hell

If only I could lose myself in the fray
Not give a f*ck who's looking my way

Can I be free of this decadent vice?
I'm crawiling into moments and paying the price
A tenuous tension envelopes the scene
Try as I might I still haven't come clean
To the glaring distress going off in my brain
Hoping that patience will banish my pain

Oh, victim of chance
Of discarded will
Riddled with weakness
And poisonous swill

Poison
Thinking about it
And not doing anything
What am I doing?