Charles Kingz - Depression Lyrics

I can't take this pain
I'm living with
And it rains on me
I'm drowning

Dear Pain
You have to go away
You've been with me to many years
It's time to make a change
I have to find a better me
And strengthen up my faith
Cause I'm messed up in the head
And I'm sinning everyday
It's like a maze
Every turn I make I'm f*cked
Now I'm feeling claustrophobic, walls are closing
I feel stuck
In this pain I'm overdosing , blood is bursting
Through my cuts
Cause these demons cutting through my flesh
And they can't get enough, It's like they're drunk
This liquors rushing through my veins
It's like I'm stuck in deep confusion
No conclusion to this pain
It's like a side of me wants God
Another side of me wants fame
But at the end its all the same
Cause I'm the only one to blame
God forgive me

Would it be a better place if I was never?
If death is a part of life then should I end it here?
Would people show up to my funeral and shed a couple tears?
Cause it seems that people love you more when you're no longer here

I can't take this pain
I'm living with
And it rains on me
I'm drowning

Dear God
Right now I'm begging for your help
This depression's taking over me
I have nobody else
It's a demon that looks just like me
I'm talking to myself
It's something that I've never felt
I guess my souls burning in hell, well oh well
I guess that no one understands me
I just want a bit of love
Somebody that could make me happy
No I don't believe in family
All they do is criticize
Instead of helping with my problems
They're just f*cking up my mind
Well oh my
I just wanna die
I'm tired of wearing this disguise
Of a happy man it's a lie, it's all lies
I guess I'm running out of time
Yeah it suck to be alive
But its harder to say goodbye
Goodbye

I can't take this pain
I'm living with
And it rains on me
I'm drowning