I'm sorry if this makes you cry Video (MV)

It was just a dream, is what i realize when I wake up
I lay in bed confused, it felt so real
My mama says, I live too much in the past
Life goes on, the key is to let go
Will it stop
All the thoughts about ending life
I'm so alone, not allowed to think this way
It starts in the morning, it goes on in the night
I just don't think it's right
All the things you've told me, everything I see
It never leaves my mind
It makes me f*cking tired, it makes me scream
Can I go back to my dream
I hope you know i'm sorry if this makes you cry
But sometimes i'd rather die
It's just a phase, is what everyone keeps telling me
There're worse things in life, don't be so blind
But all I wish is to find inner peace
In my body, in my heart, in my mind in my art
It starts in the morning, it goes on in the night
I just don't think it's right
All the things you've told me, everything I see
It never leaves my mind
It makes me f*cking tired, it makes me scream
Can I go back to my dream
I hope you know i'm sorry if this makes you cry
But sometimes i'd rather die
I...
I'd rather die
I'd rather die
Oh i'm sorry, i'm sorry, i'm sorry
That I...
I'd rather die
I'd rather die
Oh i'm sorry, i'm sorry, i'm sorry
It starts in the morning, it goes on in the night
This isn't right
All the things you've told me, everything I see
It never leaves my mind
It makes me f*cking tired, it makes me scream
Can I go back to my dream
I hope you know i'm sorry if this makes you cry
But sometimes i'd rather die