seventeen Video (MV)

You tell me I was just another one of your old patterns
I guess once again I'm just the fool who thought that I mattered
I never heard your voice quite like I did just now
All flat like the drinks on the rooftop we left out

I wish I was surprised, I wish I could cry
Just so I could rip apart your t-shirt
I wish that I could feel, wish somebody didn't already
Steal all of my emotions
No, I wouldn't be this numb

If I was seventeen
(Ah)
If I was seventeen
(Ah)
If I was seventeen, this would've really hurt me
But at least back then I could feel things

You tell me you're doubling sessions 'cause you're such a damn mess
We both know we had a good thing, f*ck what your therapist said
Don't know what to say, I'm way too used to being let go
I'm hollow like the bottle of red I finish alone

If I was seventeen
(Reckless, young, so free)
Yeah, if I was seventeen
(I could love so deep)
If I was seventeen, this would've really hurt me
But at least back then I could feel things
I could feel things

At seventeen, seventeen
Seventeen (Ah)
If I was seventeen, seventeen
Seventeen (Ah)

I wanna feel that ache, let my heart break
But I've built up so many walls, it's too late
Wish I could get back to believing
In love without leaving
When not even fear could hold me back from feeling

Seventeen, seventeen
But I'm not seventeen