Chill Sloan - Lost in the Mirror Lyrics

I used to think that thinner was the way
Taught myself to hide and push the pain away
Finger down my throat, but it never made me free
Just a mirror filled with lies that I couldn't unsee

People said, "You're handsome," but I couldn't believe
The reflection staring back, always deceiving me
Bones where they shouldn't be, and still I felt too wide
Turned off all the lights, couldn't stand to see inside

I was chasing shadows that were never really there
Fighting battles with a voice that didn't care
Every pill, every plan, just a desperate plea
To escape the weight, but it's still crushing me

Now I'm breaking down these walls I built so high
Facing all the truths I buried deep inside
I've been lost in the mirror, but it's time to see
There's more to life, more to love than skinny could ever be
I wanna find the beauty in the mess of who I am
Learn to love the soul beneath this skin, this fragile man

House full of bottles, promises of weightless dreams
But the emptiness inside, it's tearing at the seams
Obsessed with the number, it controlled my mind
Never left me room to see the joy I couldn't find

Heartstoppers brought it back, the truth I had to face
That my thoughts and actions had me trapped in this place
But now I know the chains that I can choose to break
To leave behind the lies, the shame, the endless ache

I was chasing shadows that were never really there
Fighting battles with a voice that didn't care
But I'm ready now to turn the mirror toward the light
To see myself with love, to stop the endless fight

Now I'm breaking down these walls I built so high
Facing all the truths I buried deep inside
I've been lost in the mirror, but it's time to see
There's more to life, more to love than skinny could ever be
I wanna find the beauty in the mess of who I am
Learn to love the soul beneath this skin, this fragile man

The past can't hold me, I'm stronger than I knew
It's time to let the weight of love come shining through
With every step, I'm leaving all the fear behind
And finding who I am, no more living blind

Now I'm breaking down these walls I built so high
Facing all the truths I buried deep inside

I've been lost in the mirror, but it's time to see
There's more to life, more to love than skinny could ever be
I wanna find the beauty in the mess of who I am
Learn to love the soul beneath this skin, this fragile man

Now I'm hopeful, I'm healing, I'm ready to be
A version of myself that's finally free