Chin - MY LETTER TO YOU Lyrics

(This is my letter to you)
(All that I put you through)
(This is my letter to you)
I kept you up all night long
Got you thinking like where you went wrong
When I left the house you ain't know if I'll come back
Damn you was so strong
I was so gone I was so reckless
I was so young I was so dumb
Cops at the house and they break down the door
I go on the run
You told me you could be whatever you want
What I want to do I just wanna sell drugs
I want to be gangster I'm hanging with thugs
I want to shoot shit I'm playing with guns
Dropped out of school it ain't fun
I'm filling up smoke in my lungs
You said get in that car I'ma take you to class
I walked in the front out the back
You getting phone calls like where is he at
FBI at the crib men in all black
You're heart it be pounding just want to collapse
When you was in school you was star of the track
But I ain't running in no field
I'm running out in the streets
I was stealing your car at the age of 13
You told me you just want some peace
You told me you just want your rest
You told me that I was so blessed
But I didn't see that not at the time
I was too busy just getting arrested
I was too busy making you depressed
I was too busy trying to get me a check
I was too busy running with the devil
I'm out all night long and I think I'm possessed
Feelings that I can't supress
Anger anxiety I'm feeling stressed
One after another you thinking what's next
I ain't make it home now you thinking I'm dead
When I went to jail you wouldn't even visit
'Cause you couldn't deal with that image
But when I came home I said I'm gonna make me a change
I had a new vision
I'm sick of the ways I was living
I know you was sick of it too
I'm gonna change like I'm on a new mission
I ain't coming back to this prison
I promise you I'ma be different
I'm gonna beat those addictions
I'm gonna change up the way that we living
I'm walking with GOD now I really did it
I'm chasing my dream and I don't see a limit
I really switched up pivot
I left the house and I know that I'm distant
I'm really far from home but I'm changing my life
And then bringing you in it
I went and I flipped me the switch
I got out the streets like I jumped me the ship
I sold all the gold on my neck and my wrist
Now my heart full of gold and I ain't gonna quit
I threw out the guns now I'm living sober
I really did it like I'm really gon' win
But I ain't alone I got GOD on my side like I'm walking with HIM
I promise I'ma buy you a new crib
I promise your dreams come true like make you a wish
I promise you gonna be proud of this kid
But Mom I'm a man now got to admit
And I couldn't do it without you
Like I wouldn't even know how to
I'ma keep going 'till you say I'm proud of you
Even when you say it know that I ain't gonna stop
Like I'ma make it to the top
I know it was hard I put you through a lot
I'ma make it all worth it I made it my job
Give you the world I told you just watch
You are my everything
When they all doubted you stood by my side
Now I'll give you everything
Wipe all those tears away don't you cry
Life doesn't come with a manual it comes with a mother
Won't ever go under
I won't ever drown 'cause you pull me up
You gave me my light and you taught me to love
Even though my words can't do enough
I want to thank you for all that you've done
Thank you for giving me life
Thank you for making me stronger and keeping me tough
You always stop and listen to my triumphs and fears
You always there to just dry all my tears
My biggest fan like you always gon' cheer
If I need you, you always appear
For the times I forgot to thank you
And all of the little things that you do
All of those words that went unspoken
I need to say I love you
Take my hand
'Cause I'm taking off never land
I'll be your number one man
For you I'ma take me a stand
I'll always be there
Like take my hand
It don't always go as we plan
But that's just the beauty of it
You know I'm your number one fan