Chisom Oak - A Message to Mother Lyrics

Hey
You came up the other night
Not about the loss
Or the aftermath thereof
But cus it's your day
Yeah it's your day
Or more it's our day
It never really hit
So it's hard to understand
I must look like I've got my head stuck in the sand
But if they ask
I think I'm alright
I'm holding tight

Cus when they ask how it feels what can I say
I'd love to say I cope in my own way
But I don't know
I'm not down
Nah I've hardly been here
Safe in the fog
I've been smothered
I've been safe from all fear

When you saw my eyes
What did you think
Did you see any love
Behind those blinks
I don't understand
I'd be glad
If you were great as they say
Before I could see
You had to go
And pass away

I'm sure you're better off
But there's nothing better 'bout it
And like they said there's nought I could have done
What did I do
What did we say
Why did you leave

I know you're better off
But there's nothing happy 'bout it
And I just feel it's only you to blame
So get out my head
Get out my heart
Stay in your grave

Maybe I'm not quite right
I'll concede a little lost
I'm still trying to settle
All this flying dust
Cus you sure left in a wind
Took the whole kin, for spin
Seems we're still stuck somewhere
Over in the past

And I'm sure you knew the pen
Couldn't you have left a note
Not a bible
But a thin coat, for the cold
Oh mama I've been growing old
All my demons growing bold
Couldn't you have left a searchlight
For the dark

Cus when they ask how it feels what can I say
I'd love to say that I coped in my own way
But I don't know
I'm not sad
Nah I've hardly been here
Safe in the smog
I've been smothered
I've been safe from all fear

When you saw my eyes
What did you think
Did you see any love
Behind those blinks
I don't understand
I'd be glad
If you were great as they say
Before I could see
You had to go
And pass away

I'm sure you're better off
But there's nothing better 'bout it
And like they said there's nought I could have done
What did I do
What did we say
Why did you leave

I know you're better off
But there's nothing happy 'bout it
And I just feel it's only you to blame
So get out my head
Get out my heart
Stay in your grave

Cus when they ask how it was what can I feel
What could I say about a wound that never healed
Cus to be frank
I've felt nothing
No I've never been clear
Down in the mist I've been strangled
I've been choked in the fear

When you took that final breath what did you see
Any sisters, your own daughter, maybe me
Were you sorry, were you happy
Were you finally clean
Was it the peace
You were hoping you could glean